Reality ruined my life

F I F T Y F O U R

It's horrible to sit and watch the people who you love so much hate themselves.
Because there's nothing you can do, besides from listen to them and nod like you know what they are going through.
But you have no clue.

It's horrible to sit and wait for someone you love so much to even spare you a glance.
Because you mean nothing to them, and probably never will.
But you wish they secretly want you too.

It's horrible to always make sure people are around you are okay, but soon as you feel down nobody is there.

It's horrible to think to yourself that you don't matter, and nobody cares about how you're feeling.
Maybe because their to consumed by others around them to even notice?
Or maybe they don't care?
That's the most devastating 

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