AUTHORS NOTE: Hey guys. So, what did she mean by "this has to stop"? Well, you're about to find out. Here ya go!!
~Stephanie ;)
Chapter 15:
On Saturday, I was back in my normal clothes, but I had a little brown jumper on. It was my mothers. It hurt me to wear it, because that meant that she was gone forever, because she would never let me wear her clothes, even if my life depended on it. She would grab my fathers instead. But I wore her jumper, and I finally saw why she would never let these go. They were so soft! And of course, they felt like you were getting a nice, warm, loving hug every single second of the day. Even if you took it off. They were companions to you when you were lonely. And that was exactly what I needed. Especially for this decision.
From my time out of school, I thought. Loving more than one person for the rest of your life, it was wrong. And the problem needed to be fixed. And I was just about to fix it.
But there was something else that I needed to fix first.
I went on my contacts list, and there it was. The exact number I was afraid of.
Ryder Porrter. I took a deep breath and pressed "call."
"Hello?" He answered. I had changed my phone number, and he had no idea it was me.
"Hi, Ryder. It's Ember. Now, before you hang up, I want to apologize."
"Apologize? For what, being selfish? For taking advantage of Daniel and me? For ruining our lives? For not wanting to trust us with the truth?" He challenged. I sighed.
"Yes. For all of that and more. I am truly sorry. I played you two, because I had no idea what I was doing. And it was wrong. And I just want to be forgiven by one of you before I'm gone." I spilled.
"Wait....before you're gone? Ember, are you dying?" He asked, sounding really concerned. I smiled. He cared, he may not have forgiven me yet, but he cared at least the slightest bit.
"I'm not dying, but I'll be dead soon." I went on.
"What do you mean, why?"
"I'm fixing the mistake."
"Ember, you're not a mistake. Without you, I wouldn't have broken up with that girl before that was cheating on me, without you, I wouldn't have the lovely wife I have now. You put my life together, because you broke it apart." I smiled. I had helped him, and it sounded like he was glad. Glad he met me. And he could tell stories of the girl who died breaking everything, but putting it back together.
"Thank you for that, really. But I ruined Daniel. He's despicable now. And ruining my life. But it was already ruined, and I'm ok with that, because everything will be right and aligned soon." I said, still smiling.
"Well, I forgive you. But please don't do this. Just...just please." I smiled. He cared. He forgave me. And I was glad.
"Goodbye, Ryder Porrter. I'll see you soon." I hung up. I took in a deep breath, and put my converse on. I went downstairs, and grabbed my keys.
"Where you goin?" Brian asked.
"Out, I'll be back soon." I said, smiling. And I was going to be back soon, just, they wouldn't see me. They would see a letter.
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I bought a card for each of the people that were closest to me. My brothers, Harry, Niall, Louis, Zayn, Liam, Mallory, Ryder, Jake, Conner, and even Daniel. Just to apologize. I wrote in them, their own special message for each one, and sent them out.
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