I'm sorry Kevin.
***Haru's POV***
I know this was my decision but, I can't help but be scared, scared for Kevin, scared for my dad in Afghanistan, even scared for my mom. Just what will they do...how will they handle my death? Should I write more in the journal? Maybe I should send Kevin a message. No I can't. If I do he might be hurt even more. But I can't go without telling him my feelings first right? I mean I know I wrote it the my journal but he might not end up reading it. Ok I will send him a message but not about my suicide...I take out my phone and start typing, before I send it I can't help but stare at the profile picture I set for him. It's a picture we took together at the water park last summer, his arms around me, head resting on my shoulder, the smile across his face, and his dark wet hair. All this makes me love him more, I quickly stop looking at the picture and send the short message to him.
I love you, Goodbye.
Now that I did that...I guess I should get on with it. I walk over to my bed where my dad's Desert Eagle lays, and slowly bring the handgun up to the side of my head. Its finally time.
~ding dong~
Huh seriously at a time like this? Should I ignore it or...
~ding dong~
I decide to go answer the door. I start walking to the door and open it.
"Haru"
Its him...but why is he here?
;"Kevin...?
"Hey its been a while. Can I come in?"
Sure....
***Kevin's POV***
I walk in and Haru and I head to the living room. I go walk to the couch and start signalling Haru to come over here too. He awkwardly comes and sits down next to me and asks me why I came over so late.
;"I needed to talk to you.
"About what?"
Why have you been avoiding for the past few months?.....Did I do something to upset you? If I did tell me!..Please....... ; Haru's plain expression changes as soon as I say that, he looks like he's about to cry.....
"Did you get my message?"
;"My phone is turned off right now...... Why?...What did it say!? ;Tears are starting to fill his eyes.
"Nothing important.....just promise to check it after you leave...okay?"
;"Okay I promise......; he still looks so cute even when he's crying...
;"Say Haru.... can I tell you something else?......
"Ah sure."
Happy Birthday...
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Suicide Journal (BxB)
RomanceHaru Agrestes, teenage boy, who is in love with his best friend, Kevin Stines, decides to kill himself but before he goes he decides to write some unique entries in his notebook ......Will Kevin be able to read the journal before it's too late
