Suicide Journal (BxB)

New Ark: Part 1

****Kevin's POV****

"Kevin...wake up." I feel someone rocking me back and forth and ask them what they were doing. "Come on.. did you forget." I jump up and quickly recognize the persons voice. "Aw Haru sorry I didn't no it was you.." He smiles and tells me to get ready. I oblige and go into the bathroom for a quick shower. Stepping in to wash my hair I go into a sort of deep trance. Starting tomorrow will be the last week of me and Haru's high school life. So we decided to go on a little day trip to an amusement park with a few other friends. I wonder if I should tell them about our relationship...Nahhh.
After 10 minutes go bye I finally finish and dry off. Walking out of the bathroom I see Haru waiting for me holding a plastic bag. "Is that for me?" I ask a little confused. Haru says yeah and walks me right back into the bathroom. "What....are you doing?" I ask suspiciously. "Look I got us matching outfits" he says with a little laugh. Pulling the clothes out of the bag Haru's innocent expression turns into a grim smile, and I can feel my eyes growing wide as I stand there, wearing nothing but my towel, in pure shock.

**Narrator POV**

The boy continues to laugh evilly as he takes out a light violet hoodie, with the words Power Bottom written on the back, and a white striped shirt to go underneath. Kevin backs up a little fearing for his manhood, looking as if though he was fearing for his life.

**Kevin's POV**

"THERE'S NO FUCKING WAY THAT I'M GOING TO WEAR THAT!" I scream at him. Haru begins to move closer and closer to me still holding up the items "Oh come on if you wear it I'll promise to treat you real good later tonight." he says with a wink. "BUT-BUT I'M NOT EVEN A BOTTOM!"
"So? (hehe) you may say that now but one of these days you will be, even my shirt agrees." Haru says still laughing as he pulls out a light pink hoodie that has the words Mega Seme written on it.
"Please tell me you're kidding"
"Sorry no can do...Now hurry up and put on your clothes we don't want to be late.
"Ah fine...But can we at least switch hoodies?"
"Nope(✿◠‿◠)"
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***Haru's POV***

Kevin and I arrive at the amusement park a little after 11 a.m. and find our friends, Ash and Daniel, who instantly jump us with things like "What's a Seme?" "What the actual fuck are you wearing?" oh and my favorite line yet "Hey those clothes make you look like faggots." thanks Daniel for stating the obvious.... Kevin looks down at his feet all embarrassed trying to hide his blushing face and I quickly understand what's going on and decide to take action. "Oh my...wait you didn't know?" I say in a sarcastic trolling voice. "Know what?" Ash says curiously. "Kevin is..." This is it this is the moment the truth comes out. "My bitch" Once I say this everyone turns pure white and ultimately just decides to drop it. We continue our way to the entrance gate without any words spoken to each other...and still don't say a thing until we get all our stuff ready.
"So um what you guys do you want to do first?" Daniel asks.
"I want to ride the Booster."(Ash)
"I want to play the fish in pond game.(Kevin)
"I want food."(Haru)
In the end they ultimately decided to ignore my comment and go to the game stands. After a few hours of games and rides everyone finally agreed to come get food with me. Ash and Daniel run ahead of us to get in line for a food stand, and leave Kevin and I behind. "Well geez they sure seem like they'll never run out of energy." Kevin says to me in a calm voice.
"Yeah but I kind of enjoy that about them. Their outlook on life just feels so refreshing don't you think?" Kevin just smiles at the sky and I continue to speak as we slowly walk to the stand we want to go to. "This little group we have is unimaginably fun and interesting. When I first started hanging out with you I never thought everything would turn out like this.. I just feel so ashamed of myself for what I was planning to do last year and I probably don't deserve such amazing people like our friends, but I at least want to treasure them for as long as possible.. so I now want to try my best and live on." We both shut up as Kevin and I arrive in the food line and stay quiet until we have everything and go to an empty bench to talk. "Haru...."
"Yeah?"

**Kevin's POV**

We sit down and I quietly start speaking to him. "You know I love you so much and I couldn't be more happy for you." Haru's face turns pure red in a matter of seconds and he rest his hand of top of mine. "I really love you, more than anything in the world, so I'm going to be straightforward with you." I look up at Haru, confused, and see a sort of intense pleading look in his eyes. "What do you mean?" I ask with a devastated tone. "Kevin I know you better than you think so I'm pretty sure I know exactly why you haven't told anyone, besides your family, about us yet..... You're scared aren't you...Just like I was before we became a couple. I let it devour me and I couldn't crawl out of the devastating hole that I landed myself in. I know for a fact that if there's something I've learned it's that fear shouldn't take over someones life. So please just understand that... it's okay to be gay."

The color completely fades from my face and I stand up to walk over to Haru. "You know...If you truly believe that then I will believe it to. Its about time that I give up on this foolishness of hiding my true feelings. It's about time I let the world know what's going on." I go down on one knee now kneeling down in front of Haru. Projecting my voice so that everyone near us can hear, I start crying as I speak.
"Haru Xavier Agrestes, I love you more than anything in this entire galaxy, You're always there by my side and I always feel strong when I'm near you, I know this probably sounds cliche but I want to protect you and give you a good life so... W-will you marry me!?

Wow this is an insanely long chapter but oh well :)) I hope that everyone who reads it likes the story(please vote if you did)..btw sorry if it's not that good but at least I liked it:)) *get's only one vote from myself* okiee bye