Suicide Journal (BxB)

Suicide Journal pt.1

My name is Haru Agrestes I'm writing this today, because I don't know what else to do. You see this will be the last thing I'll ever write okay so lets  get this started this is my suicide journal....

It all started when I was a freshman at Fuokbouy High. That's where I met Kevin. He would always come to my side stopping the bullies from picking on me. About a year after we met my admiration for him started turning into something else, it was becoming love. I kept getting anxious to see him more and more, we eventually became best friends and bullies wouldn't go after me anymore because of Kevin's popularity. Life was going great. Not only did I get to Hang out with Kevin practically 24/7 but I got to enjoy high school life too.

At the start of 11th grade my happiness started to fade into depression. Over the past year my love for Kevin had just grown bigger and bigger. But I knew he was straight, he has always been a ladies man, getting new girlfriends, kissing them, hugging them and even having sex with them. Sure that had bothered me for a while already then, but I just couldn't help but to wish I could do these things with him too. I really loved him, he was my best friend, the guy who protected me, I was and still am nothing without him. After some time it felt like me and Kevin were starting to drift apart. But I did nothing about it, because I could barely even talk to him without bursting into tears. It had been a month since we last spoke, and I was getting more and more depressed as the days went on.

About two months went by now and I was a wreck my mom had gotten back into her old drinking habits,and starting beating me every chance she got, but that's still not why I'm deciding to do this. I just don't know what else to do,so if you read this  Kevin, I'm sorry

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Notes:

I hope you really like this story so far...continue reading to see what happens next Ps: the next part will be written in a first person view.