The Shy Girl's Secret *rewriting*

Twenty-six

Today felt like a normal day, much to my surprise. I spent the first half filling myself up with cakes and other sweets while Aron laughed at me. But we decided to cut the day short, "Bye Aron!" I yelled as he began to back out of the driveway. He honked the horn and I smiled as I turned to the door ready to open it. The door flew open and a very annoyed Ryder was standing in front of me with his hands crossed over his chest. "We need to talk," he said practically glaring me.

I walked in the house and shrugged,

Do we need to talk? That's not your boyfriend.

 Maybe he canceled the wedding...

But then that means I won't be Mrs. Cruise.

Who cares?

I do!

Why though-

"Jenna are you even listening?" he said clearly annoyed "I'm sorry what?" I said snapping back into reality. "Of course. Whose that Aron character?" he said saying Aron's name as if it disgusted him.

 "My boyfriend," I answered nonchalantly. He sighed and ran his hands down his face, "I know I shouldn't interfere and I have no room to talk but I just thought that you'd at least fight for us. That kiss meant a lot to me and I only hopped into a relationship because I thought you weren't ready. Did that kiss mean nothing to you?" he asked. I bit my lips and lied to him, "No, Ryder. I'm sorry" I mumbled and he nodded. He walked away from me and I sighed at my stupidity. As I walked to my room I heard glass breaking him and him cursing like there was no tomorrow followed by the slam of his bedroom door. I sighed again and fell face-first on to my bed.

if anything terrible happens to me, I deserve it.

I mumbled before letting myself go to sleep

*Dreaming*

"So ... Is that Ryder character off your back?" Aron asked. I didn't reply cause I didn't know how to answer that question. Ryder was worst than a hover parent he wasn't easy to get rid of. I'm surprised he was okay with me going to Miami with Aron. "I think so," I answered. In a blink of an eye, Aron grabbed a fist full of my hair and yank my head back forcing me to look him in the eye. 

"That wasn't the correct answer Jenna," he said as he glared at me. God I hate Christmas, I was defenseless, I couldn't even use the skills I was born with to my advantage. That was my wish, to be normal for the day and now it's biting me in the ass.  "I don't know, He said he was fine with us," I squeaked. His hand landed on my face hard and I was tasting copper. I screamed but only to be hushed by the monster I called my boyfriend, "Shut the fuck up," he demanded as he tried to undo my pants, I kicked him hard and screamed again. "No one can hear us, darling. You can scream as loud as you want," he said yanking my pants down. I was thrown on the bed and I screamed knowing exactly was going to happen to me. 

I felt a force shaking me violently and my eyes snapped open.

"Jenna!" Ryder said and I started crying. He ran his finger across my cheek and gasped, "Who did this to you?" Ryder asked. I didn't reply.

All of it felt too real.

Get over it its just a dream.

"It's okay, it was just a dream. None of it was real," he cooed kissing the top of my head. Dream? It felt more like a vivid nightmare. I start to calm down and hiccuped a bit. After a while of fighting sleep, I felt Ryder get up. I reached out and caught Ryder's wrist before he was too far and said "Stay with me." the other side of my mattress dipped and within seconds we were spooning. 

Thank you, I thought as I let sleep consume me.

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