Hope which works

chapter 17

Heart throbbing, brain stammering, heart leaping, bum smashing.... Wait what bum it's just a knock on the door not the end of the world... no it's not Felix on the other side it's my friend Luke or zoey... why are my palm so sweaty I don't even like felix... urgh... why the fuck I am thinking about him that asshole... I have to open the door or the person on the other side will smack it down... as I turned the knob... please don't be Felix... please don't be Felix... please be Felix.. the door opens.... And... Oh it's just colette... phew... I just survived a teeny tiny heart attack...

"Why are you gaping me like that?" Rude voice of colette got me out of my day dreaming at night wild thoughts...

"Nothing... I was gonna ask what are you doing here?"

"It's my room too smart ass" replied colette... feisty tonight

"Ya I mean you are never here or else you come late without knocking... so was just lil bit curious..." with that reply I am feeling like a child who broke something precious at home and is covering it up so that mom doesn't shout....

"Mind your own business.... And I lost my keys if you are so 'curious' about it..." said colette... hot head bitch...

"Ya okay" why is she so rude to me again I knew she didn't changed stupid me...

I probably should sleep it's past midnight already and I gotta early class tomorrow and if I will be asleep these stupendous thoughts by its own nature will be stopped for tonight... well I hope they do...

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I checked the time again on my phone it's 3 am... it's 3 fucking am.... Why can't I sleep... all I am doing for the last two and a half hours is twisting and turning... trying to sleep in every freaking position but can sleep came to me no... She is too busy for making colette snore...

Let's try ceiling stare this time... let this fan fall on my head so with that I will definitely be going to sleep... I was horrified when the front door was dashed open and there standing a muscular figure... ohmyfuckmegod it's Felix.... People of earth please find my jaw somewhere in the middle of the burning core of the earth....

Is that really Felix... Why my voice cannot come out of my funnels... I am such a dumbass person... he came near to me and all I did was covering myself more and more with the blanket in my hand... my eyes might be the size of the sun and is gonna pop out if he came 1cm close... is he drunk? He is going to hit me... right? But why? I should be the one hitting him he kissed me and ruined my first kiss... he's an asshole... I will punch him right now... am i?

His emerald eyes are burning deep into my hazel.... Wait there is a cut near his lip ohmygod... he had fight.... Not a good time to punch him right now... he's really close...

"Elaine?" His voice is velvet soft...

What should I say? Should I ask why is he here or why there is a cut on his lip? Urgh forget the shit I'm just gonna nod...

"I...I am sorry..."

Fuck holy mother of what....? Fuck... Felix Jones said sorry... he said sorry that to me... fuck....

"Okay... I know you probably are not going to talk to me... but please can you give me a chance to apologize like a conventional person... I wanna show you I'm not that horrendous... will you please have dinner with me tomorrow..?"

Okay that's a whole lot of freak thing to take in... what am I supposed to do...? Urgh why the hell I can't make a decision is it that hard why...? I probably should go... or not maybe I should... I don't know...