Addicting (A Yoandri Cabrera Fanfic)

chapter twenty three.

**Yoandri's POV**

We were all just talking about our lives and about what we've been doing lately, and the CNCO boys were talking about their life on tour. Richard was a bit past drunk, mumbling incoherently and laughing a little too much too make any sense of him. Erick and Zabdiel were arguing on what exactly happened that wild night in Colombia they had when they were there last year. Joel was adding in details here and there while having one of Cassie's friends sitting tight on top of him. Cassie's other friend was making herself another s'more, and my beautiful Cassie had fallen asleep on Chris.

I didn't think I would have been affected by it, but I was incredibly hurt, and even a bit of jealousy was in my veins. I wanted Cassie to have been asleep on my shoulder, I wanted her in my arms, not Christopher's... I guess I didn't have the right to be mad because she wasn't my girlfriend, but I had wanted to work my way to get to know her before making a real move on her. Chris had this charm, this cheeky personality on him that worked wonders with girls, but honestly I didn't expect him to woo Cassie as fast as he did. I didn't expect him to woo her at all. I screwed up for not making my move sooner. Damn it.

It was getting cold and the sea breeze began to threaten our campfire. We decided to take all our things and move on inside. Cassie was still asleep on Chris' shoulder and he didn't want to wake her up; I'd probably kill him if he wakes her up, but I wouldn't want her out in the cold either. This sudden spark of jealousy bothered me so much but I couldn't take it anymore. I guess I was busy lost in my thoughts when before I knew it, Christopher was already picking her up gently and carrying her inside. How I wished it was me holding her in my arms, but let's be real, I'm a pretty thin little bean, I wouldn't have been able to carry her inside without pulling a muscle, it's tragic. I didn't want to get left behind so there was nothing left for me to do than to trudge on inside the house.

I walked into the big living room, pulled over one of the chairs and took a seat in between Joel and Richard. The group starts laughing and talking again, but I can't help take my mind off my record deal and Cassie laying down in Christopher's arms. It was two completely different, polar opposite feelings, conflicting inside of me, creating a mess inside my mind that I simply could not focus on what was going on. I had kept on staring towards Cassie, hoping my staring wasn't obvious. At some point I was staring in her direction, but lost my focus, until Cassie began to fidget a little, breaking my lost stare. She began to stretch, arching her back completely, making me tense up and lose my chill because of her beauty. She looked so innocent, so perfect, yet so desirable. I didn't even realize how bad I truly wanted her to be mine, even if I had just met her not too long ago. I really hope that this little stunt Christopher pulled wasn't going to affect my chances with Cassie.

"No te levantes too fast, princessa," Christopher says in a loud whisper to Cassie, "You'll get dizzy." Cassie bats her lashes a bit, and looks up to Christopher, flashing a sincere little smile. Cassie sits up and looks around, a bit confused at the change of scenery.

"What time is it?" Cassie interrupts, still with a drowsy look on her face.

"It's fifteen past eleven," Richard chimes in all randomly.

"I don't know if you guys are still alive, but Emily suggested we turn on Netflix and watch a movie?" Joel interrupts.

"I guess we could, I don't see why not," Cassie chimes in, Christopher still holding her tight. I start to consider excusing myself and crashing in the guest room until morning to avoid seeing those two get all comfortable with each other, but I'd be so stupid to let Christopher and Cassie all alone and give him a clear path to my Cassie. I decide on staying to watch the movie, hopefully able to focus on the movie instead of my emotions.

"I'll go make some popcorn for all of us then," I say as I get up and walk to the kitchen, trying to act normal and hide the hurt in my voice.

"Let me come help?" Cassie calls out to me. My heart skips a beat, but I try to ignore it because I know I'm gonna end up hurt.

I start rummaging through the cabinets and grocery bags for the popcorn boxes. Cassie is washing her hands at the sink.

"Hey, sorry for not getting to talk to you much tonight, I really wish we would have though," she says with a cute little sigh.

"But you seem to have been in good hands," I say a bit bitterly, avoiding her eyes.

"Huh?"

"Nevermind, just please help me open these up," I hand her the bags of popcorn to help me unwrap them from the plastic cellophane wrapping. She takes them from my hands and the warmth of her fingers send a spark though my body. I wonder if she felt what I was feeling too...

She places the first bag in the microwave and presses on a couple buttons before getting the microwave to start and says, "I was thinking," she pauses a bit then continues, "do you think we could hang out later this week?" I turn my head to face her, and I feel my heart sink.

"I don't know if I can," I start. "I've got a few meetings with my new label, plus I think I'm gonna go back to Miami a week or two to pick up my stuff and say goodbye to my family before I move over here permanently."

"Oh. Well we can arrange ourselves and figure something out right? I wouldn't want this to be the last time I see you," Cassie says in a more hushed tone.

"Well, maybe, I guess, I don't know how it's all going to play out because of recording and other stuff, but I guess we can try?"

SHIT. Why did I say that? That made me sound like a jerk and that I'm not interested in her. Damn it.

"I mean, yeah I wouldn't want this to be the last time I see you either. I would really hope it wouldn't be." I say attempting to fix my words.

I guess I was just really confused with what I wanted and with her being all close with Chris. I don't know. I really don't.  We stood in the kitchen for a little while longer, finishing popping all six bags and then placing them in big bowls. We took the bowls back to the living room where we walked back in silence and sat back in our spots across from each other.

I think I just messed up big time, but I really hope I didn't ruin my chance.

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happy spring break y'all

love, kat ☀️