Where it all began

Chapter 17

"Will you be my girlfriend"

The words lingered in my mind playing over and over again. Harry and I have been insanely close ever since we met, and I adore that he accepts me for who I am; but after being a huge fan and only dreaming of this day to come, I couldn't say anything. I like Harry, I really do, but it's not right. Everything will only get more complicated from here, and I don't want that! We're perfect how we are. We have our cute moments and butterfly's will erupt my stomach, but we're Best Friends. If we get into a relationship then further down then track something goes wrong, I don't know how I'd be able to handle losing him. Ever. 

I love Harry and I don't- wait. Conscience, do you want to fix that shit up? I don't love him, pfft.

Yes you do, you stupid girl. 

Wha?! No! We're friends-

That love each other.

No, stop it. Go away. 

Whatever. 

Ha, queen sassy. 

Bitch, leave. 

Ok.. (Sorry)

I went way to into context of thinking about my answer, but this is a big thing ok! Harry Styles just asked ME to be his girlfriend.

"What a crazy mofo"

"What?" He chuckled. 

"Huh?" I was snapped out of my thoughts.

"You were like, staring off then came back saying 'What a crazy mofo'" He laughed again. 

"O-Oh.." I sucked in my lips and looked away. 

"So..?" He questioned. 

"Harry.." I breathed out, I was too tired to be thinking about this situation. His eye's glanced from his twiddling hand to my eye's, then examined my face. "I should go.." I quickly pulled the sheets off me and slipped on my shoes. 

"Why do you do this?!" He frustratedly asked, getting himself out of bed. 

"What do you mean?" 

"This! As soon as things start getting serious you back out! It's confusing the hell out of me Tiarna! One minute I think you're interested, then the next you're running away!" He paced over to me and pinned me to the wall; his hands either sides of my head. He had a hint of anger in his eyes and his breathing was deep but short; almost as if he was trying to calm himself. My eyes were wondering all over his face. He frowned, then looked down shaking his head; pushing himself off the wall. "You're so afraid to continue what we have" He started talking in a calmer tone. "You know something's there. You feel just as much as I do. It's just you're pulling away now because you know that if you don't pull away soon, you might find yourself falling in love, and you don't think you're prepared for that."

He read me like a book. I hadn't said anything, but he gathered all that just from the way I act.. 

He turned from the other side of the bed, only to make eye contact with me. His face read that he was hurt and it is all my fault. I couldn't handle this anymore. I needed time to think. That is a lie, it's all I've been thinking about ever since I layed eye's on this boy. And I've already said yes a million times up in my head, but I act before I think. As and example, right now I am running out of Harry's apartment before he see's my tears fall. 

I made it outside, only to realise it was pouring AND that I left my clutch and phone inside, so I had no way of contacting Nicole to come pick me up nor any money to get a cab. Great, look's like I'm walking. I took a step from his front step and was instantly chilled from the cold rain. My clothes were saturated once I had taken four paces. I heard the door handle being yanked open, but I didn't bother to turn. 

"Tiarna.. Tiarna!" I ignored his calls and kept walking, quickening my pace.I heard splashes from behind but before I could react he was standing in front of me, just as saturated as I.  "Tiarna, listen. I'm Sorry alright! I'm sorry that I've been pushing things too far, and sorry for earlier, I didn't mean to get so worked up. I just.. Uh, I really like you okay, and you're driving me insane! I can't go a day without talking to you, other wise my day is shit. I think about you constantly and everything reminds me of you!" 

I cut him off. My heart took over my body and crashed my lips onto his. His plump lips were moist from the rain. I slung my hands around his neck as he was a bit taken back, but a moment later his hands slithered around my hips, then picked me up gently so my legs were wrapped around his torso. 

I'm enjoying this.

We both pulled away breathless. My heart was beating rapidly, then I opened my eye's to be faced with Harry. I slid down his body until my feet were planted on the ground again. His face had the expression of confusion and 'did that just happen?!'; which were the same expression on my face, yet I was quite pleased. 

"That was pretty dramatic.. with the rain and all" He said, holding out one of his hands to catch the falling droplets. I chuckled. I stared up at him as he admired me. Sometimes, I look at Harry and I'm like "You're just a boy from normal boy from Chesire, why am I so infatuated with you?" But he is so much more than that. 

He's sweet and a gentleman; the kind of guy you want to take home to meet your parents. He's quirky, clumsy and kind of a dork, but he makes me laugh, and there's never a dull moment when i'm with him. Every moment, no matter how big or small, is a memory I'll cherish for a lifetime. His beauty captivates me, intrigues me and I can't seem to look away.. His talen in one of pure nature, innate to his own being, so much so that I don't think he is fully aware of it's cast versatility.

I can't help but be in awe of him. Those light green eyes and that contagious cheesy smile surrounded with deep dimples. And those natural plump pink lips, and the way they verbalize. Those dark brown curls that shape his head perfectly. His deep husky British accent which makes my knees weak. His funny, crazy, perverted and lovely attitude. 

Harry Styles is more than just a boy with a voice; he is a beautiful human being whom I am totally and utterly infatuated with. 

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This is possibly my shortest chapter yet, but I wanted to leave it there so I can get some shleeeep. 

I'd love it if more people would read this.. any Idea's on how to get it more 'out there' ?

Please let my Llama escort you back to reality. 

xoxox