Save me from myself

EENY MEENY MINI MOE

At 20 I got my Bachelor's Degree in Nursing. My family's ultimate dream for me. Who wouldn't want to be in this field? An in-demand profession with an excellent compensation worldwide. My sisters have started to plan for my future. They want me to go to the States to join them as we haven't seen each other since I was twelve. We are five in the family and I am youngest. And the age gap? It's from 14-16-18-20yrs.. So just imagine how protective they were to me. I even grew up thinking that our eldest is my mom.

They left the country to work abroad when I was still a child. I appreciate everything that my sisters done for me. They never let me experienced the poverty that they been through back in their times. They have provided everything for me and I am really grateful for that. However, I felt that I never had control in my life any more. They made decision for me and I abide.

To be able to practice nursing I should get a license first. Li-censure Exam is happening 8 month post graduation. This will give graduates enough time to review. Most of my batch mates enrolled to review centres. I told my sisters that I won't be enrolling to any review centres to save us money and I'll just do it on my own. Maybe ask some of my friends to lend me hand-outs. They agreed because they trust me and they know that I would not fail them.

For about a week or two I've been busy attending back to back graduation parties. Then I realized that no more allowance for me and I am running out of cash. That's when I decided to work. It's about time to stand on my own and make my own money. Call Centres were at peak that time. You've got a good rapport, then you're in! I never told my family about this. Everyday I would leave the house on my schedule but they didn't know that I leave to go to work. What they knew, is I go to my friend's place to review for the upcoming exam. That's how they trust me. They never ask.

I took that opportunity to save. I've worked for 8 months and I've been so thrifty al-throughout. I don't buy my food in the cafeteria. I just grab anything I can bring from home.

The big day is up. It's the licensure exam. Yes, I still took it even though I lack preparation. On the hallway going to the testing rooms, I can see examinees reading handouts, others are exchanging questions and some praying. And me, I don't feel anything. I am not even nervous. All I want to happen is to get that thing started and get it over.

After a few weeks, results were up but I didn't even care to check it. Then I started to receive text messages commending me. So, I went on-line and true enough, I pass! I didn't expect it because I just did "EENY MEENY MINI MOE" in answering the exam. I guess I am just lucky. Never the less I am still thankful that I got it. Now my sisters are preparing everything for me to be with them. It has been a long overdue get together. I was supposed to join them back in high school however, I run away from home that's why it was hold off and I promised them that I will join them after getting my degree. I made an alibi that I would like to work in the local hospital first, to gain experience but the truth is I am planning to go to the city and look for a a different job.