This Is Our Sweet Blasphemy

My Heart Is Flawed (part 2)

~Ivy's POV~

It was break time, and I was a bit scared when Vic said that she needed to go grab a few things in our room. I didn't like being alone, I honestly didn't know how I lived before the girl with baby blue hair got here.

Oh wait, I remember now, Macy.

Ah, that reminded me, I was scared because of her also.

I searched for a place to sit and wait for Victoria. Victoria was a person I would never understand. It was like she wasn't afraid of anything. How could someone possibly not be afraid? I guess that's why I admired her so much. She was that type of person that you'd love to get on her good side, mostly because she was a good person, and then because she'd kick your butt if she didn't like you.

So I was kind of amazed when I saw her this morning with puffy eyes. I felt so guilty. I meant to say sorry, but I knew she wouldn't understand... How would she understand something unknown to her anyways? If everything went as planned, she'd never know, but I would still have a guilty sensation every day for my entire life. I heard the sound of feet against gravel and turned my head quickly, automatically; you get used to being alert when you're the main target of every bully.

My heart sunk when I saw the last thing I'd ever want to see. Her jet black hair was long enough to be thrown in a pony tail and still come over her shoulders, her shocking eyes glared right through my soul. I was terrified, I knew she was going to hurt me, or worse, she might assign me another one of her 'missions'. That was the last thing I wanted.

"You idiot!" Macy growled at me, stopping in front of me and using her thin hand to slap me across my soft cheek. I quickly felt tears filling up my eyes and annoying my sight.

In a way it was nice to not being able see her anymore, I've gotten a lot more afraid of her image instead of the dark. "Wha-What are you t-talking about?" I stuttered, a nervous energy flowing through my veins, making me what to run miles and miles away from here.

She threw her head back and laughed "Oh you fucking knowwhat I mean you smart-ass!" She spoke in a way that only I could hear her but I still knew and felt like she was screaming her lungs out.I shook my head ferociously, trying my hardest to make her see I had literally no idea what she was talking about.

I barely talked to her today. Only last night, and that was before she went to do whatever she was going to do with Father Biersack. Oh dear, Father must be feeling tormented as well. I pitied him, being the only loved one of a crazy girl such as Macy.

"I-I really don't, Macy, r-really." I protested, it was impossible, what could I have done wrong this time? I thought about anything that I've done that could have been even slightly stupid.

And then it hit me. I had asked Victoria to leave. It wasn't the right time yet. I wasn't supposed to ask that just now. Oh no, oh no, oh no. My eyes widened and Macy glared at me even more. I had no idea what she was going to do about my mess up. I knew she was capable of many things; things that would make her go to Hell. I almost started sobbing uncontrollably at the thought of Hell. Me collaborating with Macy was giving me a ticket to inferno. The Lord would never forgive me. My parents have made me terrified of not going to Heaven my entire life, and to this day I was frightened.

My thoughts were cut by another stinging slap across my other cheek. A felt a few tears stream down my face this time. The cold drips of water colided against the hot, presumably red surface of my skin.

"Oh don't you dare cry you useless piece of shit! I had made it very clear that the moment was not right to tell little smurf to leave. I was still going to make her suffer, then she'd be dying to leave." She gave me a twisted, small smile.

I didn't want Victoria to suffer. Not at all. She was nice to me; she'd taken Macy off of me on her first day, once again because I hadn't correctly done the raven hair's homework. Victoria was also my only real friend, she'd walk with me in the halls, and she wasn't like the other girls who'd be too ashamed of being seen with me.

"Oh sweetie..." Macy said, in the voice she'd only use with me, the one I knew too well. I was the one that made feel special, but at the same time I knew there was poison behind them. She brought her two fingers up to wipe away a few tears that were rolling down my cheek; it was useless, there were only more that came to replace them anyways. "If you had followed my instructions and stopped trying to anticipate things, ... we wouldn't be having this conversation right now." She smiled one of those really soft and pretty charming smiles. I had no idea how she'd come to know that I'd talked with Victoria. However, one thing I've come to learn with Macy, is that she has eyes and ears everywhere... for example, I was one of those 'spies'.

Her smile turned quickly into a snarl and she grabbed my hair and started pulling me down. "Idiot! Stupid bitch!" she kept insulting me, with every word she said it felt like a dagger through my heart. I screamed out in pain while she threw me to the floor. My scream was muffled by her hand as she roughly shoved her fist in my mouth.

Tears rolled uncontrollably, I didn't realize they were there at first, but I started feeling the wet surface colliding against the smooth breeze. I was bleeding, I felt the taste of iron in my mouth and I went up to touch it, to make sure. I checked my hand and felt like passing out, a flowing red liquid was smudged on my finger tips and I was sure the same liquid was dripping non-stop from my mouth and nose.

I heard shouts of protest like "No! Stop!" coming from afar. I tried looking towards the sound and I could barely see her blue hair through my tears. I turned to other way to see a taller figure dressed in black leather equally running towards us.

The hits didn't stop though, every second a stab of pain went striking down my entire body, making me tremble and I could just feel my body going number by the second. An instant later, the blows stopped. I was surprised for a moment. It was like a dream, I felt as if I were in a dream. I turned my head and tried figuring out who was where and what was happening. I didn't understand much of anything. I felt my head getting heavier and heavier by the second.

I couldn't think straight, my brain felt like it was stuffed with cotton. My eye sight was getting darker. I felt tired. Yeah, sleep would be a nice thing to do right now. Did Victoria just save me again? I don't know. I don't know much anything right now.

That's when everything just went black, and I drifted in a deep sleep.