Protected Love

Chapter 6

Augusts P.o.v

Eventually Mike and Vic decided to go to bed. I decided to take the couch since Sumner and Hi-Me, I mean Jaime, fuck, I hated when my Spanish entered my English. But not bad... I MIGHT just call him Hi-Me from now on. I laughed to myself. Anyways I interrupted my thoughts, since "Hi-Me", I laughed to myself again. and Summer were in my room. Tony had left just a couple minutes after Mike and Vic went to bed.

Goddammit. It's not fair. Why did I have to like him? Tony was just so cute. I mean honestly he's all the things I want in a guy. He's tall and tan and to add on he has long hair, tattoos, piercings, a huge dick.... Well I don't know that yet.

I began to hear little music threw my head. I began to hum to the beat in my head while tapping my fingers. I began to sing to myself. "self mediate, while they sleep we let the night chase evil things away"

hey that's not that bad. I pulled out a paper and pen. Maybe if I write a song about Tony I'll feel better.

I continued

"and were like animals home sick from shows, we gotta, kill everything before the night gets wasted."

images of Tony appeared in my mind.

"maybe it seems so strange, but we don't even stress at all cause we've got poison in our...come at me with everything you've got"

now the images burned deeper I began to imagine it's together. I wanted to burn the images in my mind but all I saw was us burning in fire hand in hand. the beat picked up.

"burst into flames, scream in the dark, in gonna light up this place and die in beautiful stars- tonight"

now I hurt because I knew he could never be mine.

"does it even make a difference when I'm sober I feel pain, as we run under the stars, cemetery back yards, celebrate the way the night hides scars"

I stared at my scars angry. I screamed now. knowing no one could hear my awful voice. I didn't care either

"SO DANCE! if it moves you. JUMP IN THE FIRE if it burns you. I'll throw my arms around your darlin' and we'll burn to ashes, drown me in the flames."

I sang back to the chorus

"scream in the dark, I'm gonna light up this place and die in beautiful stars, but if these demons keep falling from the sky, it's alright, cause sometimes-I-love-the-way-you-swing-the-blade-at-everything in sight---"

I slowed

"seperate me from my own two hands I killed too many times, but I can't save the world from creatures that don't die."

I began to speed again

" I kinda like the way you tell me baby please come home, I need you here right now. I'm- cryingunderwater so you don't hear the souund"

I heard a guitar solo in my mind.

"Burst into flames,scream in the dark, I'm gonna light up this place huhohhhh yeah! "

I took a deep breath

"and I will be the only light, I'll be the on-ly light!"

music played in my mind again till it was over.

I skimmed through my paper. holy fuck?! I wrote this?!

how can a guy make someone write this?! I stuff the paper under the couch. hopefully no one would find it. I really don't want my brothers thinking that I cut. I mean I do.... But they don't know no one does. I can't let them.

I just wish maybe I could love someone like.... Tony. and he could hold me and tell me that things will be fine, but they will this time because he'll force it.

I hate my mind. I rubbed my eyes and fell asleep.

Mike's P.o.v

I woke up feeling hungry again. It's time for mikeys mid night snack. I ran down the stairs and found August sleeping on the couch.

I felt chills. damn it's cold. kids gonna get sick. I felt her and she was already cold. Fuck! we honestly can't afford her to get sick. me and Vic haven't been to a hospital in years but... August... her recklessness drives me crazy. I always tell her to stop sleeping down here.

I picked the little shit up and brought her upstairs. I tucked her in my bed and put two blankets over her freezing body. maybe I'll go out an bye some ramen noodles if she feels sick tomarrow.

I grabbed a left over taco from the fridge and ate it cold. I threw myself on the couch. Damn the couch was cold too. we really need some heaters down here. maybe if I pull off an extra shit I might be able to get one or two.

I got off the couch and ran back upstairs into my room. I pulled out an air mattress and fell asleep on it.

I woke up at 8 in the morning. I tossed and turned trying to fall back asleep, no luck. I sat up and saw August sitting at the edge of my bed, glaring at me. she should be thankful. "seriously Mike, I'm not a baby" she sniffles. "Awe you have a cold don't you?" I sighed feeling her temperature. "It's wust a swuffy nwose" she swatted my hand. "Godammit, I told you to stop sleeping down there, remember Summer got really sick" I wanted to act mad but all I felt was sympathy. I hugged the little shit. she hugged me back and rested her head on my shoulder. " I love you" she sighed. "I love you too. That's why I'm here, always up your ass" I chuckled I back away. "now let's go say good morning to every one while I heat you up the last cup of soup. "soup? but I hate soup" she complained in a sticky voice. I lifted her over my shoulder and ran down stairs with her. "Mike put meh down!" She tried to yell. But I dropped her on the couch.

I ran into the kitchen where I saw Summer making Jaime and herself some eggs. "hey little sis." I smiled. I reached over her a grabbed something from the top shelve. "It's so great being tall" I teased. she slapped me with a rag. "Mike go away you giraffe" she laughed. "fine" I filled the cup of soup with water and put it on the microwave "maybe I will" but I just stood there waiting till the microwave beeped. I grabbed the cup of soup and held my head high and left all hawtily. "your such an ass" I heard her say as I made my way to the couch to August. I gave her the soup. she made a disgusted face but ate it anyway.

I waited till Vic woke up and when he did he was already ready for the day. "So what are we gonna do today?" I asked as he ran down the stairs. "rehearsals." He walked into the kitchen "we need this to really work out Mike. I'm feeling this" as he said that blink 182 came into my head. I hummed it. "Oh yeah, so I think August might be getting a cold" I sighed. "Vic your too nice, you need to start talking more and doing, it can't be there way. remember in this house we're the adults"

he sighed knowing I was right. "I'm really not okay with Summer and Jaime, but makes her happy. these are choices you have to make, I know he'll make her happy. That's why I agreed." I kept on "we've held August back she's never had a boyfriend and she's not boycrazed which I'm thankful for. things are hard and will always get harder. Vic"

he still didn't reply. he just walked into the living room. "mornin girls" he said hugging each of the girls and leaving a kiss on there forehead as he did.

"So August, Summer we have band rehearsals today, August I expect you to stay home....in bed." He finished. she groaned. "and for you Summer-" Summer cut him off. "I got it Vic I'm just gonna stay and hang with August it's been a while since we've been helping with the band and stuff." "Oh um okay great Vic smiled.

Vic, Jaime, and I all left to meet up with Tony.