Protected Love

Chapter 8

August P.o.v

I woke up and stretched. I stared down at Summer and 'Hi-Me' tangled together. They were cute, fuck cute they were adorable. I felt pathetic. I'll never have something like that. I'll never be cute like them. I'll never have that.

I felt a tint of sadness.

Why must I suffer and never be happy. How could that possibly be fair.

I just had to like some one who's taken, who doesn't have any feelings for me at all. I don't blame him though. I'm not any attractive.

I felt kind of angry now.

And the only way to heal is to do it. I grabbed a small pocket knife and quietly slipped into my bathroom.

I mechanically pulled off my shirt. I opened the knife and without any hesitation dug it into the skin under my chest down, across to my waist.

I cleaned the blood till it stopped bleeding. I pulled my shirt back on. I decided to go say good morning to everyone else and I walked into the kitchen. I saw Vic grabbing a box of cereal. Once he got it he squeezed me in a hug. I tensed up a bit, but let him hug me. I couldn't let him know.

"So how'd you sleep kiddo?" He then released from the hug.

"Fine" I replied unemotional. He served himself a bowl of cereal.

I walked into the living room and say next to Mike. He was watching the Ninja turtles.

Summer and 'Hi-Me' walked into the living room and say across from us. They seemed oblivious to the world.

It made me want to punch myself in the face for staring.

Vic walked into the living room. "Okay so I plan on taking the band to the mall." He announced.

"Why" Summer asked still not taking her eyes away from 'Hi-Me'

"Well I decided to use that pierce the veil band design you and August made for our band shirts, how's that sound?" He answered with a question.

Summer and 'Hi-Me' just stared at each other wide eyed before 'Hi-Me' congratulated her with a kiss.

Vic called Tony as we walked to the mall. We met up with him, but not just him. He had his arm around a blond and extremely pretty girls waist.

"Hey guys, this is my girlfriend Stephanie. She wanted to meet you guys" Tony said holding her close.

"Nice to meet you" Vic kissed her hand. She couldn't help but grin.

Why did my brother have to be so fucking nice?!

I tried to block out everyone by trying to think of something else, it somewhat helped. All I heard was we were going to angle pond as we waited for the shirts. Fuck.

As we got home I quickly threw on a one piece. Thank God I didn't throw this away. I joined everyone back in the living room. As soon as they were ready we left.

I began to walk around. But I want paying attention. "Fuck" I yelled as I clenched my stomach. I bummed into a bench.

"You okay?!" Vic began to run towards me. "I'm fine"I ran into the water. My dark blue bathing suit was blood stained. But the water slowly cleaned it.

Vics p.o.v

I sighed and shook my head. Oh well I guess she really was fine.

I glanced over at everyone. Mike was taking off his shirt to get into the water. Jaime was sitting up against a tree Summer was lying in between his legs on her back, while feeding him cherries. Tony and his girlfriend Stephanie just teased and flirted with each other. They looked in love.

I remembered that feeling.

I was with a girl named Cara. She pained me too many times. She wanted me to leave with her. But how could I leave when I had to take care of Mike and August. August was 12, Mike just turned 14, and I was 15.

It was sad that our mother died when we were young. But what was sad was August never really got to know mom. So she would become more of an idea than a person to her.

"Let's go into the water" Jaime said getting up. We all agreed and got in.

After a while of enjoying ourselves we left.

Stephanie decided she was his head to get house and see Tony later and Tony just hung out with us.

Tonys P.o.v

Vic decided he wanted to sleep early while Mike, Jaime and I played video games. August and Summer watched a show called 'teen mom 2' and made fun of how bad of an influence they are on their child. I thought it was pretty funny. I found myself laughing at some of the comments they said.

"what are you ganna do, be like 'yea sweety I got knocked up at 16 then decided to be a porn star. arnt you proud of me! I have sex for lots of money! with random men!" or

"yea sweety I have gone to jail many times for smoking pot and other drugs. I never really wanted to take care of you so grandma took you for me. I did it for u baby!" or

"yea, I beat your dad so I was sent to jail. then rehab. but it was for you! I even got it on camera so you can watch it happen" or

"look sweety, I really just don't give a shit. I got knocked up by your asshole dad and well, I'm just ganns smoke and drink and do watever the hell I want. You can stay with grandma for all I care"

they were pretty funny the way they said them. they were throwing popcorn and chips at the computer screen boo'ing at their stupidity.

"these woman are fucking ridiculous. if I got pregnant anytime soon I'd be a way better mom. I mean I give some of them props because they arent all bad. but seriously, a porn star??" Summer said with a 'are you fucking kidding me' tone of voice.

"you better not get pregnant anytime soon" mike said looking at her then at jaime.

"calm downn mike.. I'm not that stupid. I mean I can be, but not that much."

"just don't have sex" he said and went back to the game. I laughed lightly when Summer stuck her tongue out at him.