Protected Love

Chapter 9

August P.o.v

It was 9:55. The time when Tony came in shit faced.

"Tony?!"Vic said in shock. "guys, Steph kinda broke up with me. she kicked me out. I'm fucked guys" he almost fell on the ground.

I rushed over to him and helped him on to the couch.

"August" he muffled out. "shh." I placed my finger on his lips. "just take it easy babe"

he began to cry. I felt my heart sink into my chest.

"August" he tried again through his cries. this was severely heart breaking. "I love you"

I stared at him in shock my jaw dropped. I heard somewhere someone drop glass.

"I love you so fucking much. I tried to get you out of my head. But nothing works" he combed my hair with his fingers. But he sang through his drunkness. "have you ever really danced on the edge?"

I held his face in my hand, and stroked it softly with my other.

"I want him fucking out of here!" Mike yelled out raged.

"Mike don't be ridiculous, he has no where to go! so what he said he loves me, what does that matter to you!" I yelled at him only slightly turning my head not removing my eyes from Tony. "He's only drunk"

"it matters because we all know you like him" my eyes widened when he said this. "for God's sake you wrote the song about him!"

I felt my eyes water as I turned to summer. "did... did you tell them?" I choked back the tears.

"No they eaves dropped. You know I'd never tell" she said staring at the floor.

I looked back at Tony. "He knew" I couldn't hold back the tears anymore.

"shush" he tried to place his hand over my lips but just hit the side of my face. "I love you I love you more than the stars have skies"

I couldn't help but smile by his mistake. I took his hand into mine. I almost didn't realize Mike and Vic fighting about his stay.

I didn't listen to either of them I didn't care. Tony.... he loved me?!

I suddenly felt sick. holy fuck! he loves me! What If he's only saying this now but when he's not drunk he hates me.

I had to forget about myself right now. I helped him up the stairs and I helped him climb into my bed. As I figured him in and turned to leave I felt him grab my wrist. I turned to him

"can you stay with me?" He asked. "But Tony" but he interrupted before I could finish. "please I really want you right now" I couldn't say no so I climbed in with him.

he wrapped his arms around my waist and nestled his face into my neck. he instantly fell asleep. I've never slept with a guy before, I mean besides my brothers, I've never slept with... a guy, and like this. I couldn't help but smile as I fell asleep.

Mike's P.o.v

"No fucking way!"I yelled at Vic "I pay rent he can stay" Vic fought back and won before he ran up stairs.

GODDAMIT! AFTER ALL THESE FUCKING YEARS. THERE HAS NEVER BEEN FIGHTS OUR PROBLEMS.

But then we've never knew about our little sister's cutting. I never knew there pain.

I wanted them to be happy. But not happy because someone's there, but happy on there own. Because some day that person might leave or die. I don't want them to feel unbearable pain.

Summer left with Jaime up stairs. I layed down on the couch and for the first time since my mom died I cried.

So much for being strong Mike. all mom asked was for us to take care of each other and she needed us guys to be strong and caring.

"I'm so sorry mom" I cried out to myself "I'm so sorry mom, I really fucked up. I need you. I need you to be here. your the only one who knows how to handle this! mom please come back!"

I felt fresh tears burn my face.

"mom!" I cried "why did you leave? why?! Why couldn't you just hang on.I'm not strong enough to deal with this on my own"

'but your not on your own, you have Vic and August, just talk to Vic.You know how sweet and caring he is. he'll love you just as much as I do' is something she'd seem to say to me right now.

"But mom I only want you right now"I felt like a little kid again.

*** flashback ***

"It's okay my little boy" my mom cradeled me on her arms "I'll never let anything hurt you, nor would your father or Vic." she kissed my forehead and sang me a sweet Mexican lullaby "I love you" "I love you too mommy"

That's all the memory I had of her, and that's all I thought about as I cried myself to sleep feeling weak.

Tonys P.o.v

I woke up with my arms around August. What happened last night? she woke up and turned to face me. "Hai how'd you sleep?" she asked feeling my temperature.

"I'm fine" I assured her. "What happened last night?"

"Tony you were drunk. You came by saying Stephanie dumped you. then...... You confessed your love for me" she looked down.

It all came back

I lifted her chin and pecked her on the lips. a smile tugged at her lips. she was so pretty.

I didn't feel like getting out of bed with her but my stomach didn't leave me an option.

I quickly hopped out of bed and rushed to the bathroom and threw up everything. I lay on my side on the cold bathroom floor. August was instantly by my side. she lifted my head and later it down on her lap. she ran her hand through my hair and softly kissed my face.

she then helped me up and I washed off my face and brushed my teeth. this sucked.

she slung my arm around her shoulders abs helped me into the living room. she settled me on the couch and made me something to eat. it was a lot so I pulled her on my lap and made her ear it with me, though I fed her.

No one came into the living room but I knew everyone was awake by the talking.

I sighed. But stared into Augusts eyes. she smiled at me. I couldn't help but kiss her again but this time I used my tongue. I licked her lips and she just kinda froze. I pushed my tongue through her close lips, but her teeth were clentched.

'come on babe don't make this hard ' I began to feel her teeth loosen, and I stuck my tongue in. I felt her tongue and rubbed it against mine. she didn't move hers so I played with it, until she did.

now our tongues played with each other.