It All Started On Tour

Im Sorry.

Kellin's POV
I wish everyone would give me a chance to explain what happened but no one was even looking at me let alone talk to me.

We've cancelled the last week and half of tour, of corse we'll make it up to them but right now with Vic in hospital we can't do anything.

I didn't want to cancel just put back but Mike in the state he was cancelled the whole thing, I can't blame him, I mean his brother is living off machines right now.

When I saw Mike clinging onto Vic on the floor my stomach felt sick, and he was right it was my fault, but if people let me explain that Sam isn't my girlfriend then maybe they'll forgive me, but at the moment they all hated my guts.

I called Sam later that night to apologise for shouting at her like I did but if she didn't 'surprise' me on tour then this wouldn't of happened.

See before the tour started I said to Sam that I don't think we should continue because I just wasn't feeling for her anymore and didn't want to be in an unhappy relationship, of corse she thought It was just a thought and not that I actually ended it with her, and now here we are all sitting in a hospital.

I would be crying if I hadn't already cried myself out. I felt so numb, I was hoping this was a dream and I'd wake up soon. I looked over to the others that were sitting over the other side of the waiting room on chairs.

I sat away from them in the floor with my knees to my chest crying until I couldn't no more. I rested my head back on my knees and tried to even out my breathing like I had been for the past hour but it wasn't working.

"Kels?" I voice called me, I looked up to see Justin standing there, the only person who would talk to me.

"I got you some water" he said handing me the bottle, I would of said thank you but I didn't want to cry again. I took the bottle with a shaky hand and undone the bottle before putting it to my lips and drinking a small amount trying not to spill it because of how much I was shaking.

"Are you ok?" Justin sat on the floor next to me.

"No" I mumbled. "This is my fault" I said putting my head back on my knees.

"Please stop blaming yourself" he looked to me.

"He said he loved me" I looked to him again. "I said it back and he laughed at me" I said remembering what he done. "I shouldn't of left him to walk off, but I did, and now he's in hospital, everyone but you hates me" I said tears welling up in my eyes again.

"Once you explain they'll understand" he said nudging me.

"I wanna see him" I said standing up.

"Mike won't let you" Justin said looking at me.

"I don't give a shit, I love him, and I want to see him" I said before walking to Mike.

"Let me in there" I demanded.

"What so you can make it worse" he spat back at me standing up.

"If you'd let me explain" I sighed having enough of saying that.

"We know, you have a girlfriend" Mike said.

"No I don't, none of you have even given me a chance because you all don't want to hear the truth, because once you know you'll all feel like shit for ignoring me" I blurted out glaring at them all.

"Now let me in" I said to him after they all went silent.

"Explain yourself" he said looking at me.

"Fine, I was with Samantha before the tour but I wasn't happy so I said we should end things, she thought I didn't mean it and came to surprise me on tour, as soon as she kissed me I pushed her away but Vic was already gone for me to explain, I shouted at Sam and chased after Vic, he wouldn't let me explain so instead I said I loved him, he laughed and walked off and I left him because he just laughed at me saying I loved him when he said it a few seconds before, and then you came back with him and yeah" I finished.

"How do we know your not lying" he said.

"Seriously" I rolled my eyes. "Fucking call Sam yourself if you have to" I said pushing my phone towards him.

He looked to the others who had sorry looks on there faces. He sighed and gave in.

"Hurry up" he said walking off, I followed him.

"look I know you have every reason to hate me right now but I am really really sorry and I didn't mean for this to happen" I said to him trying to keep up with his pace.

"I know, I was just angry" he said to me slowing down a little, "I just panicked, he's been like this before and I hate it" he said with tears in his eyes. "And I'm sorry for not letting you explain" he said before stopping at the door.

"Thanks" I smiled at him before walking in. I looked at Vic who was unconscious laying on the bed with tubes and shit coming out of him.

"Fuck, I'm so sorry" I said sitting on the bed next to him. I pushed his hair behind his ear and looked down at him. I felt sick knowing it was me who put him in this state.

"I can't I'm sorry" I said before leaving the room, I couldn't see him like that. Tears flooded out my eyes as I walked out. Mike who was standing outside gave me a confused look.

I just shook my head at him. I felt my head go dizzy and some arms catch me as I fell.

"Shit Kellin, are you ok" his voice was disorientated. "Kellin open you eyes" he said slapping my face. I opened them for a second before they closed again. "Don't you fucking close your eyes" he said shaking me.

I couldn't help it, I heard a rush of footsteps before it all went black and I couldn't hear anything else.