"I was coming back anyway... Before Rosalie told me the news, I was far past living through one week at a time or even one day...
I was fighting to make it through a single hour.
It was only a matter of time, and not much of it, before I showed up at your window and begged you to take me back..."
- Edward, new moon, The truth chapter
(Set in new moon during the missing months)
(Edward's POV)
I should never have come back...
But I had just wanted to check on her, before I went to Brazil to hunt down Victoria, I told myself.
But if I was being honest with myself I'd have known that I just needed to see her face...
"Edward... Wait..." I heard her moan in her sleep pitifully.
If my eyes could produce tears I'd have been drowning in them.
She was dreaming about the day I left her...
I sat on the foot of her bed and stared at her, her incomparable beauty, her beautiful voice... I just wanted to hear it one last time.
Then she started awake,bolting upright in bed. I froze, hoping to whatever God there was that she couldn't see me...
I wasn't good for her,
"Who's there???" She whispered
I couldn't move... I couldn't breathe...
"Come out where I can see you or I'll scream!!!!!" She threatened.
I crept closer to her,crawling into the moonlight on her bed. She blinked twice. Then she groaned
"Oh... I'm dreaming again... Great."
I stared in confusion.
"Bella what are you talking about you're wide awake!" I stammered, confused.
"Well then I must be losing my mind... You look just the same as you did when you left... Except you look like you haven't fed in weeks."
She was right...
I hadn't... I was too busy grieving.
And tracking... But I wouldn't tell her that.
"No Bella... I'm here..." I said
"But... Why...?"
And then I snapped. My voice cracked as I pleaded with her
"Because I love you..."
Tears welled up in her eyes...
I was confused, why was she crying...
Didn't she want me anymore...?
"Stop it." She mumbled
"Stop what...?" I asked, I could hear the hurt in my own voice.
"Stop trying to lead me on just so you can leave again next time something happens... Or you get bored of me..."she sobbed and I growled. I was frustrated. I hated myself.
I grabbed her shoulders and gently shook her.
"Listen to me Isabella Marie Swan...
I know I told you I didn't want you... But it was all a lie.
And let me tell you something else: I will NEVER get bored of you... EVER. How could I... As brave, smart, beautiful, good as you are... How could you ever believe that I didn't love you anymore...?!?"
"It never made sense for you to love me... I always knew that.
And it was only a matter of time for you to realize that too..."
I shook my head.
" no Bella...you are my whole world. Never forget that. And I will always love you..."
Then she started to sob and rushed into my arms
"I love you too..." She sobbed
I looked her in the eyes and said
"I will never leave you again...I'm so sorry..."
And we sat there, with me holding her in my arms, her stroking my face, memorizing, until the sun came up.
