Guns Of Eternity.

" Let's laugh our life because there isn't much to cry for.

It's pretty easy to say that everything is going to be alright, that we're strong.
After all death is natural and every single soul is tasting it one day or another.
But reality isn't easy at all.
We met for the first time again after the announcement.
I didn't move a lot from my house all this time. He, on his way was 99% of the time absent.
So we met again and decided to go to the beach: Nothing romantic there, we only needed a calm place to talk.
We sat on the sand and stayed silent for a moment.
The waves were forming and collapsing perpetually, whitout caring about who was sitting and watching them.
Crying or laughing, hating or loving, planning for the future or coming to see the Ocean one last time before the end.
He cleared his voice.
Apparently he was sick for longer than I imagined.
The screaming that day were because he wanted to stop his medicaments as he was on terminal phase.
We continued to talk, and for the first time, I felt this uncomfortable sensation when people meet for the first time.
Mumbling and being intimated. I hated it.
This pale face and those blue sparkling eyes wich made me in love a million times were now almost lifeless.
The silence came back.
It was getting bigger and bigger.
Oppressive silence torturing the mind.
My eyes were beginning to tear up when i felt Paul's arms wrapping my shoulders.
I turned my gaze and saw him smiling to me.
After all the suffering, the beautiful blue eyed warrior that he was simply smiled to me and said:
Let's laugh our life because there isn't much to cry for.
I tried to smile back, but the weak creature that I was couldn't stop her tears and it began to fall from my eyes. Like a waterfall of emotions, like an ocean of sadness.
" are you ok?" He asked
How could he asks such a stupid question.
" Yes I'm perfectly fine! The man who gave me my best life memories ever and who is the love of my life is sick and dying but why would I be crying my heart out and.."
I stopped. And my emotions went from rage to shame in a demi second, as I realized what I just said.
How could I be so dumb? It was the worst way ever to tell someone about your feeling. Worst ever.
" The love of your life... "
" let's go to a warmer place. I don't want you to catch a cold." I said,without looking at him.
It began to rain.
We hid under a rooftop and waited there.
I turned my head discreetly and saw him looking at me.
He smiled and I smiled back.
He came closer and last thing I saw were his blue eyes while I was closing mine and our hearts and souls finally merged.