No Matter What (Jaspar AU)

12. Missed

Joe Sugg
C: Hey Joe, I was just wondering if
you wanted to walk to school with me this morning. I want to talk to you before school as well, so come quite early if you can. Meet me at mine whenever you can if you want to. XX

J: Yeah sure, I'll be there in half an hour. XX

C: Great, see you then. XX

It was Tuesday and I had to go to school. But I wasn't dreading it now. In fact, I couldn't wait. There was still a part of me that was scared. Caspar knew most of it now, but there was still some things that I had always sworn I would never tell another human being, including Caspar. Especially Caspar. But at least I had someone now; someone that would chase me when I ran, someone to comfort me.

I'd never really been into PDA, and I didn't think I'd be very comfortable with it. I wasn't even really 'out' yet. I didn't want everyone to know about me and Caspar, only his friends. They were really nice people, I didn't mind them knowing. Not that I had a choice. But if the whole school found out, it could get back to my Dad, and that was the last thing I wanted.

I had already showered, so I just had to get dressed. As usual, I put on a t-shirt and a long sleeved jumper to cover my arm. I put on a pair of black skinny jeans with ripped knees and my dirty, white converse. I grabbed my long coat with a fluffy hood and put it on, then I grabbed my bag and walked out of my house. Zoe was busy putting on makeup and my Dad was still asleep because he drank too much last night, so I didn't bother saying goodbye to them. I never did anyway.

I remember Caspar showing me the street he lived in once, whilst we were walking home. I found it pretty easily, it was only a few streets away from our school. But I didn't know which house he lived in, so I texted him.

J: Hey Caspar, I'm outside of your street, which house do you live at? XX

C: Don't worry, just wait there. I'm coming now. XX

J: Ok XX

Just as I got the text, I saw someone walk out of their front door, about five houses down the street. I instantly recognised him. It was Caspar. As soon as he turned around, he saw me and waved. Then he walked quickly up to me. When he reached me, he pulled me into a hug before he even spoke. It shocked me at first, but I liked it.
"Hey, how're you doing?" Caspar asked me as he hugged me.
"I'm ok." I told him.
"You sure?" He checked.
"Yeah, I'm positive." I said, smiling. He smiled back at me. Caspar leaned down and pecked me quickly on the lips. I could feel my cheeks go red. Caspar could see it as well, which only made it worse.
He laughed quietly.
"You're blushing?" Caspar said.
"Yeah, sorry about that." I mumbled, looking at the floor.
"Hey," he said, putting his hand on my shoulder, "it's adorable." He smiled and I couldn't help but smile too.
"Come on you big silly, let's go to school." He laughed, playfully shoving my shoulder.

We were walking together, so close our hands were almost touching. I would have taken his hand, if I hadn't have been so scared of people seeing. I suddenly realised that I didn't know that much about Caspar.
"Hey Caspar?" I said. He looked down at me.
"Yeah?" He asked.
"What's you favourite colour?" I asked him.
"Green, what's yours?" He replied.
"Orange." I told him.
"Really? That used to be mine, but I like trees." He said. I laughed quietly.
"What's so funny?" He asked me.
"You like trees?"
"Yeah. They're pretty." Caspar said, completely unashamed.
"I've never thought about it like that. But I guess they are kind of pretty." I told him, studying the trees as we walked.
"What do you like that's orange?" Caspar asked. I thought for a second.
"I don't know... Oranges?" I said laughing, Caspar joined in.
"No Joe, I'm serious." Caspar laughed.
"So am I, I really like oranges." I said trying to keep a straight face. It turns out I couldn't and I burst out laughing, Caspar did too. Once we had calmed down I answered his question properly.
"I like orange tulips. And fire." I told him.
"You like fire?" He asked, raising an eyebrow at me.
"I like to watch fire, it fascinates me. I find it so beautiful." I said. He smiled at me.