And Life Goes On

And Then I Saw Him

                        After the funeral I couldn't bare to look into those grieving eyes anymore. So instead I asked Aunt Cherry to take me to the local coffee brewery I had been to once before because they make really good brownies." You can go Aunt Cherry, I honestly just want to be left alone. I"ll text you in an hour or so to pick me up". 

                     "Okay sweetie, I love you". As Aunt Cherry walked away I waved goodbye to her and tried to put a smile on my face. But knowing my Aunt Cherry, I knew she could see right through me. I decided to order a some brownies and a small caramel cappuccino. I sat down at a small round table with two high chairs in the corner of the brewery. As I waited for my barista to bring over my things I tried to understand my purpose in this world. Now that my parents are gone what do I have to live for. I felt the tears stinging in the back of my eyes, but I wouldn't break down. Not in the middle of a coffee shop. My barista came with my food and drink a couple minutes after my potential break down. As I looked up to retrieve my stuff from the young brunette who brought over my food, I saw something that caught my eye. " Thank You", I said to the barista still in a trance. She responded by nodding her head and smiling at me. She walked away seeming happy form the five dollar tip I gave her. 

               And then I saw him. The most beautiful boy I have ever seen. Golden brown hair, hazel colored eyes and a little stubble along his chin. He was like the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. Of course I felt ashamed since I had my eyes fixed on a boy just an hour after I buried my parents. Some daughter I am. When I look up again to try and spy on him a little more, I notice that he's gone. And just like that my world had changed again in just the blink of an eye. 

           I texted Aunt Cherry to pick me up and she text back saying she would be here in ten minutes. I left the store, throwing away my garbage. As I waited for I Aunt Cherry, I sat on the curb of the side walk. I pondered about what I've been through and what has happened to me in the past couple of days. And suddenly I started to sob uncontrollably. The realization that my parents actually no longer existed in this world, had finally dawned upon me. And let me tell you, it hit home. Yes i have my Aunt Cherry to take care of me, but she'll never be able to fill the void feeling I've had in my heart ever since I had been driven away in that ambulance from the scene of the car accident. 

      I missed them so  much. And if it weren't for the fact that I would feel horrible if I left Aunt Cherry to grieve again, I would probably kill myself right here. At the curb of the side walk that sits right in front of the coffee shop, because I'm just that selfish. And I want to be able to hug my parents again.

     It's crazy how the world can go on around you, unknowingly. The people walking past me on this side walk don't know that I lost both my parents in the same day. They're just happy to be outside in this beautiful weather. My world had ceased to go round, but everybody else's continued to go on. And in that moment I realized that the world doesn't stop spinning for anyone's problems. If anything these problems are what fuels it to go round. And life does go on.