Forever? Always

Chapter 28: Katrina

His question threw me off guard, I almost started to answer it.

"I want..." I started to say, not wanting to finish it.

"I don't want anything from you Dylan, I hate you for one thing and you can leave whenever the time suits you, you know. Cause I really don't see the point in you being here anymore." I said bitterly, hardening my heart.

He looked me in the eyes. His ocean turquoise blue eyes blazing. He grabs my face and gives me a fierce kiss. A kiss I don't want to pull away from; I do anyway, But he pulls me tightly against him. My heart starts pounding and jumps into my throat.

I've longed to be wanted and desired. To be touched with affection.

I gave in. I let his affection fill me. He leaned in more to kiss me better. I kissed him back. When I did he scooted over to sit next to me. He gives me a series of little soft kisses on the lips. He wraps his hand around my waistline. The tip of his thumb slips under my shirt, sending tiny tingles.

I lean back and lay on the couch. He follows.

He kisses my neck, up to my jawline then back to my lips. He delves his tongue into my mouth. He tilts my chin up and kisses me deeper.

What am I thinking? Dylan is no better than any other guy I've been with. What if he breaks my heart just like all the others? I can't let it happen again. I will fall to pieces. I really do care about Dylan. But how will I know he won't hurt me?

His hand goes higher up my waist.

"Dylan." I whispered against his lips.

He stops kissing me and just nibbles on my bottom lip.

"I can't do this." I said, starting to sit up.

He moves away from me, sitting on the coffee table across from me.

"I'm sorry, I just couldn't...."

"Just couldn't stand to hear me say 'I hate you'?" I interrupted.

He hangs his head down, staring at his feet. I feel bad now. I didn't want to hurt him, but I also didn't want him to hurt me.

"I didn't mean to-"

"It's ok. I'm just going to leave." He interrupted.

I felt as if a flickering flame in my heart just died. I was melting inside. I didn't want him to leave. It hurt to watch him head to the door. I think I'm a little in love with him. Which is crazy I know. He's leaving now though, so there's nothing I can do.

But, there is.

I run after him and right before he opens the door, I swing him around and kiss him. I kiss him as if I'm about to die, like I will die if I don't.

He embraces me and picks me up, pushing me against the wall. I encircle my legs around him and hold on as we kiss each other fiercely.

Dylan starts taking his shirt off. I stare at his bare chest. I run my hands over his abs. I can see dark hair in the shape of a v going down into his pants.

He lifts my gaping chin closed and gives me a soft kiss. He slips his hand under my shirt, under my bra. I bring him into a harder kiss. All I want is him.

He kisses my jawline, then he licks the sensitive spot behind my ear. He takes me upstairs.