Diary of a Non-Binary

Part Twenty-Two

People will tell me that whenever I would come out to someone or start talking about sexuality or gender that I'm being somehow extremely brave or confident. I guess, in a way, some people can see it like that, but I personally don't. Sure, the first few time you do it does take a lot of bravery, don't get me wrong, but after a while it sounds like old news to you. I do really love to talk to people and educate them about something so close to me, and I especially love answering people's questions (shameless plea for questions BTW), but I don't see it as something to be really admired. It's not like I'm some kind of scientist teaching people about a new theory, I'm just a guy talking about something close to him in hopes that he can get some people to understand what people go through. Not that I don't appreciate compliments, I just don't feel they're really earned.

Let me just tell you something about the pronoun "it". That word can be seen as very disrespectful by a lot of people, including myself. "It" is a word you use to describe an inanimate object like a pencil or a desk, and it is not meant to be used to describe a living, breathing human being. I do realize there are people who might not care what they're called, and I can respect that, but I would never use that word to describe anyone. If there is anyone who would actually prefer being called "it", I would like to know, and your reasoning behind it. I'm not being closed minded, I just have a strong opinion and I'm extremely offended when someone legitimately calls me "it". I can't really think of why someone calling you the same pronoun as a piece of paper wouldn't be offensive, but please, enlighten me if you have anything to share.

I've started running regularly again. I used to a couple months ago, but then the cold kinda kept me from going out. Anyways, I feel like it's helping me. Its nice to just tire your body out to where you can't really think too deeply about things, and then you can take showers without thinking too much as well. I think if I do this long enough, it should help shape my body to something I would be more comfortable with, like my chest getting smaller and my muscles growing a bit. I know it won't change everything, but it helps me. I would really recommend it to anyone willing to try.