Your Story (A Benedict Cumberbatch Imagine Fan Fiction)

I Love You

Today
You sit in your car. Your head on the wheel,  trying to move your body out of the car, but your brain telling your legs to stay put.
You sigh before getting out of the car and Walking up to the apartment building.

You knocked on Benedict's  door three times before seeing the shadow of two feet walking towards the door, making your stomach turn.

"Hi." He says, he looked rough.
Like he hasn't slept in days. He was wearing a black jumper over some black skinny jeans, his hair was in his long dark Sherlock curls and his eys were on the floor.

"Hi...i brought a box of your things, I figured that you'd miss your toothbrush and stuff".
You look to him and see him trying not to laugh
He takes the box from you and places the box under his arm and rubs his eye with his other hand.

You walk through to the living room

"I put some of your things in a box as well. I didn't really know where we were so i thought I'd be safe"
You smile slightly
...
"The box is in my room by the way"
Benedict says awkwardly. You nod and walk into his room. You sit on the end of Benedict's bed and rest your head in your hands.
You feel a dent next to you and an arm work its way round your neck. You turn to see Benedict leaning on you.

"I'm pretty sure I know the answer to his but Are you okay?" He asks.

"Of course not" You reply , laughing sadly.
He smiles sadly to himself.

"I had a dream last night, well more of a memory- it was about the bucket list that we both made. And I just, I don't know. It made me sad"

"It does suck" Benedict says sadly.

"I know it's only been a month since I last saw you but I just, I hate not being near you" you laugh sadly.

",it's ... Shitty not having You around to annoy me." He jokes.
You smack his leg playfully.

"You always ruin every deep conversation that we have" you say, laughing slightly.
Benedict shrugs and smiles.

"But, I know." You reply.
Benedict's smile suddenly falls
You sniffle slightly and sigh.

"Im genuinely not coping ... last week i sat and watched Sherlock series 1-3 and just cried." You laugh sadly.

"Really?"

"Yeah.. I mean that's normal for your other fans but..-"
You both laugh faintly.

"I miss you so much"
You opens your mouth to speak

"This sucks ben" you sigh
He nods nod

"I've literally lost my best friend" He turns to you and sighs. He flickers his eyes to the floor.

"And what sucks even more , I can't even moan to my best friend about it"
You both laugh sadly.
...
"when do you start filming Black Mass?" You ask quietly

"I go to Boston next month" He replies.
You nod to yourself

"Baftas tonight" He murmurs.
He turns to you.

"Picked a suit?"
You asks awkwardly.
He nods and pulls his phone from his jean pocket before handing you the phone with the photo of him in the changing room wearing the black suit

"Very nice" You say softly.
You hand him his phone back before awkwardly accidentally touching his fingertips with yours.

"I still love you... I thought that after not seeing you, it would make me love you less or stop having feelings for you or whatever, but it's just not happened. I thought if we had some distance, I could unfall for you but..."
He wipes the falling tear from his cheek.

"It's like I fall for you harder and harder each time I think of you. Which happens to be a lot"
He laughs sadly to himself.
He slowly turns his head to you.

"I love you too"  you reply.
You put your head to the floor.

"How's this whole distance thing working for you?" Benedict asks you.
You shake your head

"I'm meant to be avoiding you"

"Is that what you want?" She asks.

"Yes. No.. I don't know" I rub my eyes
....
"Lets face it Benedict. We're both miserable. We need to come up with s plan of how not to be miserable"
He nods

"What would you suggest?" He asks.
You shrug.

"I still need you in my life Ben. That's all I know" you say sadly.
He turns to you and smiles slightly.

"Me too"
He takes your hand in his and entwines your fingers.

"We were best friends once, who says we can't do it again?" He says.
You laugh slightly

"Won't it be awkward?"
He shrugs slightly.

"Is it awkward between you and Oliver?" He asks.
You nod and laugh slightly

"Well I don't love him back so it's kind of just, there. But with me and you, it's a little different isn't it"
Benedict smiles slightly.

"What?" You ask, smiling slightly.

"This is so fucked up" he whispers.
You both start laughing.

"Do you think we can do it?"

"Be friends?" He asks.
You nod.

"Well, I don't see why not. Do the others know?"

"What did you tell Gaby?"

"Nothing more than the fact that things were awkward, but if they don't know what's going on then they won't treat us any different"
You nod

"So we're going to go back to being friends?"
Benedict asks.

"Yeah, I guess so"
You smile awkwardly.

"One rule though" Benedict says.
You turn to him

"Your not allowed to tell me about your crush's like you did before" he replies, laughing slightly.
You smile.

"I don't think that'll be an issue" you reply.
He smiles at you before squeezing your hand.
You lean to him and place a kiss on his cheek.

"I'd better go, I need to do some shopping. I'll see you later friend" you say softly.
Benedict smiles and walks you out.

"See you later pal"