Shenanigans

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Taehyung drummed his fingers on the table, reading the Biology question for the hundredth times. He has been sitting in the library for almost an hour for the self study period they had before lunch. He has been trying to concentrate but lately, he found that it was particularly hard to do.

His mind was elsewhere.

'Can you stop that ?!' Hana kicked his leg from under the table. She was sitting opposite from him, and the restlessness of the guy was starting to get to her. 'You're distracting me !'

Well, you're distracting me !!

'Sorry.' Taehyung mumbled.

Hana closed her history book with a sigh, 'Okay, grumpy, what's wrong ?'

'Nothing.' Taehyung huffed, before raising the thick revision book in between them.

Hana took the book and set it aside, 'Talk to me.'

'I'm just tired.' And confused. And afraid. And having a really, really hard time concentrating when your legs keep brushing mine.

Hana smiled, 'Three more months. Then we're done with this.'

They were three months away from the dreadful CSAT test, or better known as Suneung. No more playing around or wasting time. Every seconds was used wisely.

Taehyung was a little different. He was so restless since last weekend. The weekend that he and Hana went to the park. The Sunday that she had dinner at his house. The night when he realised that he loves her.

He loves her.

He thought everything will be fine once he confronted his feelings. Boy, was he wrong.

It went from complicated to a tangled mess. It was scary, coming to terms with his feelings.

He went to school on Monday, not knowing what to do. It was the first time he faced her since his realization. He knew everything will be different.

But she was the same.

She was talkative like always, cracking jokes, babbling him. She was indifferent.

And that annoyed him greatly.

Everything has changed from his side of the world, but her world was revolving normally.

Because she doesn't know. Because she has no idea about his new found misery. Because she was clueless to the changes that happened.

He wanted to tell her. He wanted to sit her down and just let it all out. He wanted her to know and help him because he doesn't know what to do. And she always does.

But then he thought about it. He thought about what kind of changes will happen then. Once it was said, her side of the world will change too. When both of their sides of the world has changed, nothing will be the same.

Taehyung was especially freaked out about change. He was used to scheduled, calculated and thoroughly planned things.

No matter how much care he put into planning the confession, if he were ever to, there were still so much uncertainty. There were too many risk, too many things on the line.

Taehyung's not fond of risk. There's a reason why he never was interested in business. Risk scares him.

Confession is full of risk.

He might say something wrong. He might do something she finds offensive. He might rushed things or sounds obsess. He might look like he was not taking it seriously or seem too laid back.