Suffering

Chapter 19 " Memories, Periods, May."

 A Month Later, taking place in the high school. Neha's POV.

 It's been a few months since all this had happen everyone is losing hope. They think well some people know we won't get them back anytime soon. We don't know why they keep running.

 Police stopped showing up here to interview kids, Everything went back to normal. People forgetting that there's missing kids from this school. Maybe no one cares. Justin was rude, agressive, and scary. Lina was new so no one really new her.

 I go to sleep every night thinking about what he's doing to her. Beating her? making her his prositute? I just hope he's not doing any of that. Maybe they're dating, maybe she's pregnate that's why Justin doesn't want to be caught.

 Justin's POV.

  I hate being in a house full of girls. three girls, one guy. It's shit. Vanessa took Lina and I to her friends house, May.

 Also it sucks because Lina and May are on their period. it's gross really, i still don't get how girls can live with blood falling from their vagina for a month, Or how they don't die from all the blood lost.  

But i'm glad i know Lina's on her period we've had sex so many times this month without a condom so i'm relieved.

 The other day Vanessa tried to go to Conrad's funeral. She went but the place was surronded with police waiting for one of us to show. Once she saw one, she ran back. 

 I still don't understand why he jumped out. He wouldn't have went to jail he didn't do anything. But his choice he was problay screw up in the head.

 Ever since that day, the day i lost a guy that i used to be friends with. Also killing almost 10 guys. I felt like i don't even have a heart anymore. I don't feel anything when i kill people. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. Shooting someone is like air. I can't feel it. 

 I'm sure the police have forgot about us, On the news it's nothing but banks, and that crap. So that's good. But everynight i think the police, fbi, army. they'll find us, take lina from me. I'll make a mistake and they'll shoot me, Kill me. So i've been thinking on places to go soon. I don't want to stay here any longer than i have to. It's a safe place but i still don't feel safe.

 While i was thinking, i was thinking good til someone put their arm around my shoulders causing me to jump. "Calm down baby." Lina whispered in my ear. " what were you thinking about?" Lina asked. " things on my mind." i answered. " what's on your mind?"

 " Conrad, Police, Murder. the usual." I tiped my head backwards to look into Lina's eyes. those brown beautiful eyes looked right back into mine everytime.

 " Lina "

 " yeah?"

 " i love you, i always will." She smiled " i love you too, i always will."

 " how sweet, Justin tell me another childhood story." Vanessa sat down on the chair next to the couch i'm sitting on.

 " bad or good?"

 " Do you have any good ones? Look into your mind deeply." She answered. May and Lina sat down and watched me dig deep. It was sad how i couldn't remember one.

 Digging deeper trying to remember most of my child hood in a timeline i have one. It's not much but it's one.

 I smiled "got one."

 They all jumped excitedly. I've been telling them stories about my child hood for about two weeks now. 

 'When i was 10. My mom and I went to a park. it was only like 15 minutes away if my dad found out we left somewhere more than a half hour away from are house he would beat us. 

 So i was swinging on the swing my mom was swinging on the one next to me. " so how's school?" my mom asked me, She hasn't asked me that, like ever my dad never wanted to know what i did in school.

 " bad. everyone hates me, they think i'm a freak." i say watching my mom shake her head, " not everyone is gonna like you but that's life. I'm sure there is one person who likes you. But you just never talked before." She smiled trying to make me feel better.

 "no. when i walk by kids back up, then they try to hide there smile or laugh. the other day i was eating lunch alone. And a kid walked over to me. Then said some cruel things to me. I got so Pissed-"

 My mom stopped me then said " don't curse Justin, no need." I nodded then contuined " i stood up from the table i was sitting at. then beat that kid over and over again. I was pulled away from him from a teacher. All the kids looked at me like i was crazy even the teachers. I screamed some bad things at the teachers and kids telling them not to mess with me, Stop looking at me, Stop judging me, because i'm better than all of them put together. And i will beat/kill them."

 " why haven't i heard about this?" my mom asked me looking worried. " the teacher was gonna tell you, but i told her if she did i'll kill her and her kids, She looked frightend. I then told her if she told any other teachers or police this i will kill her, her kids, her pets, anyone related to her. everyone, even the person you told."

 My mom shook her head " Justin, i know you have a terrible childhood but i really need you to stop. Please." My mom got up from her swing and hugged me, I hugged her back.

 We had to rush back home because it's been over an hour since we left. When we got home, My dad was angry and drunk.'

 I finished telling the story and the three girls looked at me suprised with their mouths half way open. " you were so young, and you said those things?" May asked i nodded. " Justin i'm sorry." Lina rubbed my back. " how the fuck was that a good memory?" Vanessa asked me. " because i was with my mom, We talked to each other without being beat by my dad."

 "damn." they said at the same time i chuckled a little. " okay, i'll tell another one tomorrow." i looked at the time it was late, very late. So i took Lina's hand and we walked to bed.

 " no sex tonight babe." Lina told me. " i know, because your on your period." She laughed a little. " i love you." she told me as we laid in bed. " love you to."