Just for her. {Two fanfictions in one.}

Breaking the news.

A/N: this is going to be a short chapter, because my last chapter was 1300 words😂❤️.

Spencer's P.O.V

It's now 3am me and Hanna have been taking about deep things, really deep things, about her dad cheating on her mum, about my dad cheating on my mum, I really think I can tell Hanna what's been bothering me for such a long time. She turns the conversation too me and Toby.

Hanna: why did you snap at him? (Grabs my hands) Spence I'm always going to be there for you, but I need to know the real reason.

Spencer: Hanna I really don't want to get into it.

Fighting back the tears, I don't want the memories back, I just want to act like it never, happened everytime I think about it, it kills me.

Hanna: Spencer who  else do you expect to tell but your bestfriend?

Spencer: i did something and  I can't forgive myself.

Hanna: Spencer what Isit?

Spencer: I- I

I can't speak the words won't come out in trying so hard, but the tears just replace my words, finally when I stop crying I take a deep breath and tell her.

Spencer: I- i was pregnant Han.

Hanna: Spencer baby, what do you mean was?

Spencer; I had an abortion without speaking to Toby about it, and when he brang up that family topic I broke.

She pulls me into the tightest hug ever and she smooths my back down, she kisses the top of my head.

Spencer: what if, what if he leaves me? I regret it everyday Hanna, there's not a day where I don't wish to go back and undo it, I just- I weren't ready for a baby Han, and I know I sound awful and heartless but I was in no position too think twice, all I ever thought about was Toby hating me, not wanting to be with me. I'm a bad person I know but I regret it so much.

Hanna: Spencer, please don't do this to yourself people make decisions like this all the time, your only in your 20's I understand your reasons, and I'm sure Toby will too.

Spencer: how will I ever break this to him? Hanna I could hardly break it too you, I- I don't think I can bring myself too it.

Hanna: how about we get some sleep? And we think about this in the morning. I'll sleep here with you and we can cuddle together.

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It's 5am and I still haven't slept, I keep wondering around, not knowing how I'm going to tell Toby that I gave up our baby, Hanna is fast asleep but I keep crying, I try to cry as quietly as I can, but it gets to much I need to go out and get air.

I write a note to Hanna, and head out the door.

Hanna, thank you for everything I love you so much and I missed being with you, thank you for hearing me cry all night, and helping me get everything off my chest, I needed to leave because it was getting all too much, i will get back to you, I promise, I love you so much.

From Spencer.

I start walking, it's still dim outside, I just keep over thinking all the time, I don't know how I'm going to tell him that I gave up our chance of becoming a family. But I know I need to do it now, before anything else happens. I grab my phone from my pocket and send Toby a text.

From: Spencer Hastings
To: boyfriend❤️

Toby we need to talk.

Sent at: 5:12am.

Within seconds he replied back.

From: boyfriend❤️
To: Spencer Hastings

Spencer I was so worried, come home please and we can talk.

Sent at: 5:13am

A cab pulls over and I slide in, this is it I'm doing it, I'm telling him, I'm actually telling him.
I sigh taking a deep breath, trying to convince myself I got this under control, that no matter happens we will be together.