May mga bagay na hindi mo talaga makukuha, hindi nakatadhanang maging sayo at yung kahit anong gawin mo hindi magiging ikaw. Yung tipong ginawa mo lahat sa klase, you took that much effort you did your best, and then the result turned out wala ka sa top your not in the line, your not part of it.
Minsan yung isang bagay na gusto mo hindi mapapasayo. Mapapatanong ka nalang na bakit, 'why can't I have it' 'why can it be me' 'why can it be? '
Im always asking that damn question on myself over 5 years. Paulit-ulit, bakit hindi ako? Bakit hindi pwedeng ako naman... Bakit hindi pwede!
Sa lahat ng bagay bakit yun pa yung hindi ko makuha? Bakit hindi siya? Bakit Hindi yung pagmamahal niya... Bakit hindi yung puso niya.
"Kai? "
I hate his voice, I hate how he talks , I hate how he smile, I hate everything about him. I HATE HIM.
"Kai? '
I hate his voice, its like I'm hearing my favorite song like its a music in my ears.
I hate how he talks, it makes me fall for him even more.
I hate how he smile, its makes my heart melt.
I hate everything about him.Because he make me feel special even though I'm not.
And I hate him because I felt that he left me hanging without even noticing that I'm about to fall.
I hate him because he made me realize that this is just us.He pinned and rooted within my souls that this will be forever us.
" Oh?? " Ayoko nang maging kaibigan siya, kaso hindi pede.Kung pede nga lang.
"Kumain ka na Kai? "
"Yuh. You? "
"Yep, so ihahatid kita sa inyo?"
Why can't it be us? Bagay naman tayo ah. Bakit ba kasi hindi pede.
"Sure kaba, you have your first priority and its not me."
"Kai? "
"What? I'm just saying that you have your responsibility with someone and you must do it. In fact I can handle myself"
Im starting to get irritated but I'm getting my shits together. Bakit hindi niya maintindihan na may girlfriend siya, na may responsibilidad siya sa ibang tao at hindi sakin na bestfriend niya lang.Bakit ang manhid niya na nasasaktan na ako na ipinamumuka niya sakin na hindi kami pwede.
"Kai? Nagtatampo ka na naman ba? "
Hindi, nasasaktan ako... Please tama na.
"No, pero please puntahan mo nalang yung girlfriend mo. I bet she's waiting"
"Are you sure your okay? "
Pafall
"Yes, kaya please go. "
I shoo him away, smiled in myself bitterly. Ang tanga ko.
Marami talagang bakit na lagi kong tinatanong sarili ko pero alam ko naman pala talaga ang sagot.
Why cant it be us?
Kasi meron na siyang Trisha.
Why can it be me?
Kasi nga meron nasiyang Trisha meron na siyang mahal.
Why can it be?
Because he has Trisha, meron na siyang mahal...
Paulit-ulit, masakit na hindi ikaw... Hindi magiging ikaw.But atleast you realized why can it be you.
