Team Family (Richonne)

Chp 7: You don't get to choose

(A month time jump)

Michonne's P.O.V

"Did you really?" I asked, laughing at Rick's story about how the previous run went.

"Yeah and then Daryl got all in his face and I was like, woah, Jesus calm down.. This ain't what you want."

I laughed at how Rick told the story with his hands and his facial expressions, he was so cute.

I gazed into his dreamy eyes, and zoned out. His words slurred and all I could focus on was his great big smile.

"Michonne?" He said "Michonne?"

"Huh, yes?"

"Why are you staring at me like that?" he asked, still smiling.

"Uh -- You got something on your face-- but it's gone now, yeah." I lied

Damn, I was a bad liar.

"Okay..." he said awkwardly
"So, you know we're very low on food."

"Yeah.." I said

"I was thinking maybe I should go on another run.. outside of Atlanta. I'll take Carl and Jay and we'll go to a smaller city like flower branch, where it used to be vacant except for the mansions and small stores. We'll only be gone about a week and we'll bring back tons."

"Sounds like a great plan, when do we leave?" I asked

"You're not coming.." He said

"And why not?" I started to get a bit perky.

"I want you to stay here with Judith.." he explained

"Judith can stay with Carol. I can go." I assured him

"No, Michonne."

"Why not!"

"Because I don't want you get hurt out there!" He shouted

I stood up and faced him, "this is not how we run things Rick! We don't leave each other behind.. We do things as a family!" I exclaimed

He looked at his boots and shook his head, "yeah, yeah. You're right."

I shot him a smile, "I always am."

Just then, the boys ran into the house,
"Why were you guys fussing?" Carl asked

"We weren't. We're okay." I said

"You sure?" Jay asked

Jay had a black composition book in his hand and a pencil.  He found it in the attic a week ago and he hasn't put it down since.

"Yeah." I said

"So, you know the empty house at the end of the road?" Carl said

"Yeah.." I said, with an affirmative tone.

"Could me and Jay go check out the basement there? I heard there were some kids living there at  one point and I bet they left some cool stuff we can use to decorate Jay's side of the room."

I looked at Rick and he shrugged his shoulders, "sure, but please be safe, okay?"

"We will, Michelle." Jay said

I smiled and tried to punch his arm but he moved just in time

"Gotta be quicker than that Michelle!" he said

I could yank him by his long hair because he didn't have it in braids but I didn't.

Carl laughed and pushed Jay out the door, "let's go."

As they left I noticed Jay had dropped his book on accident or something. .

I slowly picked it up and looked at Rick.

"What does it say?" he asked

I shrugged my shoulders and went to join him on the sofa.

We sat next to each other, staring at the cover of Jay's book.

"Jaden Shawn Thomas"

He didn't write his name, but instead he engraved it.

"Lets see," I said

I opened the book and alot of the pages were full of endless writings and drawings Jay had done himself.

I flipped to the last page he ever recorded on and began reading aloud.

" 'I have been living with Rick, Carl,  Judith and Meshown,' he spelled my name wrong but anyway, 'I have been living with Rick Carl Judith and Meshown for a while now. Almost 2 months.. 2 months isn't a very long time but it's enough to know that they are good people. They are so happy together and they all make a great team, I look at them like my family now. From all the times we have laughed and bonded like a family have really made me happy. I'm a tough guy and I don't show my emotions well but I wish I had the courage to thank them for letting me in and accepting me because I'm not the greatest kid, I just hope they see me as a part of their family too. Carl is a great friend to me, we are always hanging out and I couldn't bear to lose him. We spend lots of time together now, playing video games, having the same guard shift and we even share a room now... He's my buddy until we both leave this messed up world. Meshown is a good mom to Carl and Judith although Carl says she's not his mom he told me he wouldn't mind if she was though..I wouldn't either. She is a good person, to me to Carl to Judith to Rick. Oh and Rick, he is a good man. He calls the shots and he makes great ones every time. One day I hope to be like Rick, the bold leader. I won't ever be like that though, Carl has a shot at it but I am not bold at all. I'm still afraid of my shadow, my 3 am thoughts  and dark rooms. Anything at all could happen but Rick is always beating it. So god, if you're listening, I hope you give me more time on this earth for the people around me. They are the closest to A family I've ever had beside my always drunk father. But I understand if my wish is out of your range, because you don't get to choose if I live or die. But I do choose to survive and it sucks because if I mess up one time, I don't get a retry! Isn't it crazy how we will all die an epic way and we will be gone forever. Just a mindless corpse walking around. Where do we go? Do we live again in the afterworld? Do we get to see our family, again? I ho--. "

That's all he wrote, sadly.. I wanted to read more.. Jay is amazing and I can't believe he was capable of writing his feelings so well..

I stared at Rick as he stared off in space, "what are you thinking?" I asked

"Jay's a good kid and he's going to go far and He's right, we don't get to choose if you live or die."

"Well, what now?" I asked

I looked at Rick holding his head down, " that kid can write really good, almost brought me to tears. He thinks I'm a good man.." he chuckled

I kissed Rick's forehead and ran my fingers through his hair
"you're a good man, Rick."

Rick lifted his head and smiled at me "and you're a great woman, Michonne."
____________________________________

Yess ill update later.