The Cartel

Chapter 6

Kasper's POV
'This what happen when I think about you
I get in my feelings, yeah
I start reminiscing, yeah
Next time around, fuck I want it to be different, yeah
Waiting on a sign, guess it's time for a different prayer
Lord please save her for me, do this one favor for me
I had to change my play of ways got way to complicated for me
I hope she's waiting for me
Everywhere she go, they playin' my song
That's why I say the things that I say that way I know you can't ignore me
But so, so
So gimme all of you in exchange for me
Just give me all of you in exchange for me, for me'.
I have been playing this song back to back for almost two weeks now. I don't know why I like this song so much. I just do. Its been two weeks since Bre and I did what we did. I haven't been able to stop thinking about her....well about it. I was thinking that I just hadn't had some that good in awhile or maybe I was craving for something much better. All that I was thinking was wrong. Why do I say this? Because I went back to Nicki just see if what I was thinking was right. I haven't found no one better than Nicki. Nicki was my first love. Her sex is better....well was better than anybody that I have ever slept with. Until I met Bre..you see when I slept with Nicki it was good but I still thought about Bre. The way she moaned my name. How her lips parted when my tongue hit her soft spot. How she clawed at my back when I went deeper. How she whimpered under my touch. To even more none sexual things. How she pouts when she can't reach something on her own or how she smirks at Paris when she knows something is up or how she slightly smiles when she sees me around the house. This what I think about.....all day everyday. It scares me.
Nicki: you're in love.
Kasper: I'm not in love I just need her again. Just one more time....that's all.
Nicki: what happens after that one more time and you want her again?
Kasper: that's the point, after this time I'm not going to want her again.
Nicki: that's what they all say.
Kasper: what is that suppose to mean?
Nicki: we started off having sex and ended up in a relationship because we figured out that our feelings were deeper than sex.
Kasper: I'm not trying to find that out with her. I don't want another relationship.
Nicki: because you're still broken over what I did.
Kasper: no. I'm over it.
Nicki: you're lying.....you're afraid to be broken again. Just admit it. Its okay.
Kasper: I'm not afraid.
I believe I was trying to convince myself more than her. Her was I kidding I was fucking terrified. I haven't felt like this in almost five years. Since me and Nicki. Nicki was my first love and she broke me by sleeping with my supposedly brother. It hurt to the core because I put my trust in her and she hurt. I told her everything I gave her everything only to get heartbroken in the end. I'm not going to blame her on why I am so cold hearted, there are a lot of reasons to that, but I will say she's the reason I'll never love again. Ever. So me being in love or liking Breaunna that's a no go. I don't have time for relationships and I'll never have time to love someone again. I don't have the heart for it. My phone beeped and I looked at the message.
'We found him'.
I looked at the message again yo make sure I was reading that correctly. I knew who it was and who they were referring to. My anger boiled and I was in dead rage by now. I slid my phone in my pocket and looked at Nicki.
Kasper: I have to go.
Nicki: bye
I left and headed to the warehouse.
Breaunna's POV
Paris: there's a petty tonight....are we going?
Bre: who's throwing it?
Paris: Vivian's brother.
Bre: okay, what are we wearing?
Paris: I'm wearing blue cut jean shorts, red and black jay shirt and red and black jays. Please wear the opposite?
She looked at me with puppy dog eyes and I rolled my eyes.
Bre: I'll wear the blue one.
Paris: great......Jay's going to be there, you finally get to meet him.
Bre: about time I get to meet whom makes my best friend blush so damn hard.
She blushed once again and I laughed. As I got ready I put on my J.Cole playlist and the first song that came on was power trip. Perfect song to be playing right now. Ever since I slept with Kasper I've been thinking about her but not a lot. Just at random times. Like now. I continued to get ready and song along to Chris Brown- back to sleep. This is by far one of the greatest songs by him.
Paris: you have a nice voice Bre.
Bre: you have been telling me that since.....forever Paris.
Paris: and I'm going to keep telling you until you believe me.
Paris has been telling me I have a nice voice since I song happy birthday to her at her 12 birthday party. In fact, everyone thought I had a nice voice I just never really heard it before.
Paris: you know what I'm going to do, I'm going yo record you and make you listen to yourself.
Bre: whatever makes you happy boo. So where is the party located?
Paris: over there by my old school.
Bre: okay, when are we leaving?
Paris: now.
We left and she drove us there. Needless to say this girl drives reckless. We made it there and got out. From where I was standing you could hear the music booming.
Paris: this party is about to be lit.
Bre: every party with you is lit *laughs*.
Paris: cause I'm the life of the party.
She has never lied about that. This girl can turn the lamest party into the hypest party of the year. Believe me she has did it before. She grabbed my hand and we walked in. I was amazed, it was a lot of space but there was a lot of people.
Paris: you're going to be the life of the party with me.
Bre: what?