Joker's Girl

Rough Days

I awoke during the night with pain building in my chest again I got up running to the bathroom tripping on my cord falling to my knees I held my chest standing wondering to the bathroom till I reached a syringe looking in the mirror I opened my shirt revealing the other holes I tried getting the same hole and this time I did pulling on the back of the needle seeing liquid come out when I took off the back it poured out and my breathing went back to normal. I watched as my heart rate went back to normal I looked on the watch the doctor gave me it watched my heart rate and beeped whenever I was in distress. I grabbed my inhaler from the cabinet breathing in counting five and holding five I released and no more liquid came out so I removed the needle I cleaned myself up I poured bleach in the sink and cleaned it. 

I walked back into the room looking in bed Joker still wasn't there I walked to the door opening it and I saw Johnny standing there.

Johnny: Boss is something wrong? What happened?

I looked at my chest and covered the scars.

Katherine: Yeah...I mean......Is he......never mind....goodnight Johnny.

Johnny: Miss.

I shut the door standing there pondering if I should ask for him or not instead I went and looked out the window the skyline was beautiful I felt myself get hot so I leaned in the window it was cold I loved it nice cool and refreshing, I then got a shiver down my spine reaching for my chest these past few weeks have not been the vacation I wanted I thought I'd be in my own home in my own bed but I can't really complain anymore he's taken care of me and I know more about him now then before I went and sat at the table leaning back in the chair looking into nothing I rested my head in my hand and looked back at these past weeks.

* Flashback*

I was being driven to the doctor I couldn't breathe I didn't understand this pain the car came to a stop and I was picked up and taken in the building, the doctor came out and everyone was screaming I couldn't breathe and I felt this pain in my chest and then soon release. I started breathing again I was given medicine and some syringes in case this were to happen again I looked at Joker and he took them. 

A couples days went by and we were going to dinner and I inhaled something and I couldn't stop coughing I drank some water but it didn't help I went to cover my mouth and saw blood I went to stand and I started choking and then I fell over blacking out, I woke up and was in bed covered with ice I got a fever that time and was sick so I was bed ridden. At this point I had everything brought to me but I never asked for much only due to the nature of how I felt about being waited on Joker was awake more than sleeping and I felt horrible he needed to sleep he had important things to do, I sure wasn't helping being sick. My medicine was supposed to help with my lungs I guess when they filled with liquid I was still healing from wherever the leak was and then the coughing attack burst a vessel and that where the blood came from.

Days went by and I was getting better and the Joker was sleeping and reading more I took more baths one day I was reading a book and he came in bringing the paper with him sitting next to me I was surprised asking what he was doing all I got was "it's not so lonely next to you". Smiling continuing reading my book when my water was getting colder I put the book down and he got up reaching for a towel I stood and he wrapped it around me when his hands went to my waste he picked me up setting me down he grabbed a robe wrapping me with it. I held it around me walking into the bedroom going to the closet I grabbed my pajamas and underwear sliding behind a curtain changing when I came out walking to my side of the bed I put my air on and heating pad placing it on my chest, the doctor said this would help open my pores and opening my lungs more I rested back breathing in Joker laid against my side and rested his head on my shoulder I put my head to his we both drifted off into sleep I thought I was getting better.

The next couple days were great my breathing was fine we went out and had a private dinner at the club until we were interrupted but a couple of men who I helped at the asylum, they were mad I was here and thought I would run and tell the police but he made it clear I would not, Joker stood pulling out a gun threatening him the guy pointed one at me and I started to panic my heart raced looking at my watch seeing it rise I knew I had to breathe but I was panicking going to run to my bag with my air but I was grabbed and pushed back hitting my head I grabbed my chest now more panicking I saw a fight break out punching and a gun went off it flew by my head I saw a hole in the wall then I saw Jokers eye's go black I closed mine and I heard yelling and screaming I started breathing harder and then I felt someone shake me.....

*Back to reality*

I felt Someone shaking me opening my eye's and saw Joker there I was sweating and breathing hard he ran over and grabbed my air putting it on my face I started breathing better immediately, I went to take my robe off he helped I only had a top on not pants and I opened that too sitting there while he got me a washcloth when he came back he sat next to me wiping my face.

Joker: Your fevers coming back again.

Katherine: No....no I'm ok I...I'm just hot.

Joker: I saw the syringe and the bathroom smells like bleach.

I looked at him and continued breathing slowly I eventually took my shirt off and put the rag everywhere I asked him to open the window going to stand by it I had the shirt wrapped around me the breeze felt nice and I was cooling off soon the sweating went away.

Joker: Come on lets get back to bed.......I'll leave the window open.

I took his hand he walked me to my side sitting me down covering me then wrapped the air cord out of the way I laid back and started breathing better but I still felt hot I soon drifted off to sleep passing out. I woke up the next morning  I looked and saw Joker was at the table in just his pants and he was working on papers I turned over smiling he was drinking coffee I went to roll reaching for my phone he gave me I opened it to check my mail and I tell you it's like they forgot about me but maybe since I haven't taken my vacation in like 3 years there really giving me a break.

Joker: Anyone miss you yet?

Katherine: Nope......apparently I'm not loved.

Joker: I love you.

I looked and he sat down next to me putting his arms on my waist around my back I ran my hand up his arm he smiled bending down and planting a soft kiss on my lips he pulled away and planted more on my cheek and down to my chest and eventually over my heart he kept his head there I placed my hands on his head and smiled.