Luke benward and I

In school

I was walking down the hall way when I see my girlies at my locker.

When I arrived at my locker, they all looked worried, then kayla toke me aside and this was when I was beginning to get worried.

"What the hell did you do to Luke" I was so surprised she even said that. I replied " I didn't do anything to him but you know what he did to me he kicked me out of the car and drove off". WHAT is all I hear from her, "he left you and drove off, why" she said looking all confused. "It because I told him I had cancer". "Does he know about now" she asked me in a very worried look. I put my head down and said "no".

We hear the bell so it's time for geography class, as I walk through the door I see Luke with his mates laughing and talking as if nothing happened this morning, as soon as he sees me he looks away to his friends and carried on laughing.

I sat in my seat behind Luke, when Ms Ralph came in, all I could think about was this morning. And how Luke reacted when he saw me, it's hurts so much. When I decided to pay attention I heard Ms Ralph telling the class that our year would do a show and tell for the grades below us. The show and tell would be about our personal traumas and what we fear the most and how we could help our selves with that situation. The show and tell is a voluntary thing so she said she would leave the sign up sheet on her desk. When Ms Ralph asked who would be interested in doing it, I was the only one who put my hand up but then kayla and this boy called Tyler put their hand up too. When Ms Ralph called my name up to sign the sheet I could see that Luke wasn't even looking at me but when Tyler and kayla went up he smiled and said good for you. I don't understand why his doing this to me, is he trying to hurt me on purpose.

SIGN UP SHEET FOR SHOW AND TELL ON FRIDAY 5th PERIOD

FIRST NAMES : LAST NAMES : ORDER NUMBER : FORM TUTOR

Kayla : Bridget :6 :Ms Perkins

Tyler : Gerrard: 9 :Mr henandes

Faith : Jones :1 :Ms Perkins

Troy : Gulliver: 4 :Mrs wittman

Dylan : Henderson :5 :Mrs wittman

Marcus : Doolittle :2 :Mr henandes

Bolten : Trevor: 7 :Mrs wittman

Casey : Mathews: 3 :Ms Perkins

Cory : Belton :10 :Mr horseman

Jenny : Darlington: 8 :Mr horseman

So guess what I'm first. I was thinking about the show and tell and I think I'm gonna tell people about my cancer and how i beat it but how it's come back again, I want people to see that whoever you are and whatever you have you can always make a change even if its little, because a little can make a big difference.

At lunch I got a cheese burger and some fries and the others got chicken pot pie, as we were enjoying our lunch a boy called Sivan came up to me and started to flirt a little after we talked he asked me if I was free Saturday and I said yes I am and I will be delighted to go on a date with you. Sivan sat down beside me and me and him were trying to get to know each other a little bit better. The room grew silent and all everyone saw was Luke walk off like he was pissed and his mates were just stunned at what just happened.

After about 5 minutes, one of Luke's friends came by and asked if I would go talk to him, at first I wanted to say no but I thought this would be my opportunity to talk to him about this morning, so I said yes and off I went into the football field.

"Hey are you okay" I asked him. BTW he was in the stands with his head down.

There was no answer from him

"What was that" before I could even finish he interrupted and says "what do you want, just leave me alone"

"First of all I want to know about this morning and why you kicked me out of the car".

The words he said really hurt me the most, that I broke down and cried in front of him.

"I kicked you out of my car because I didn't want to catch cancer off of you, you might still have it" he said in the most harshest tone I have ever heard.

"What's that supposed to mean" I replied "it might be contagious, cancer doesn't go that easily and I don't want people talking about me and how I have a girlfriend who had cancer so just leave me alone" that's when I broke down crying and I could just spit out a few words "I hate you , you really are a jerk, I hope you rott in hell" that's when I ran off of school grounds. I ran and ran until I was home. I got to the door and I just sat there crying, until I was bothered to go to my room. I walked up the stairs but felt dizzy half way up, I guess running wasn't the best thing for the situation I'm in but I didn't care about that. All I cared about was to get away from that prick as soon as possible. I could see the room getting darker and darker.......then nothing. I felt nothing.