The Blue Page

Satisfaction

Darling's POV

I wanted to have the image of his perfect chocolate brown hair out of my head as well as his water blue eyes. I wish people would stop messing with me. My feelings about this weren't too strong, but I wanted to feel good somehow. It was near the end of the school day. Last period is goof off time so I headed for the bathroom. I was alone. I locked the stall...pulled out my safety pin/needle...and my extra gooey pen. Rolling up my sleeve I found a decent spot on my upper arm and started to scratch the skin numerous times til I saw blood. Normally I stop but this time I went a little deeper til I couldn't feel the pain. Uncapping the pen next and putting ink in the wound. Felt too good to be true. I waited a moment and left the stall. The final step threw me higher. I put some hot water on my hands and the goosebumps soared over every inch of skin. I finished up and walked back to class, pleasure still pulsing through me, it won't pass til I get home. I think ill sleep the rest of the day if it helps me to not think of him...the jerk,ill bet he's like the other guys....

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AN: just wanted to give some detail I'm working my way slowly (: comments please!!!