EXO one shots

Baekhyun & Chanyeol

12

It Hurts

"And because you are my inspiration to work harder! I love you!" 

Was what I recalled when he last visited me at the hospital

 "I thought, I had a chance. I thought I was the one who he really liked. Those filthy words now disgusts me even more." I said to myself.

I switched off my phone as well as the tv. It's buzzing with the stupid news that's circulating around. 

'Well, he's a human after all. Human deserves love too' my other inner self is fighting with me.

Baekhyun was my idol as well as my neighbour. He had been visiting me despite his busy schedule. I was thinking a lot when a knock break me away from my chain of thoughts.

"Guess who's here."

"Go away, I'm not in the mood" I replied.

"Yah, it's just me, your flower boy Baekhyun" .

"And the Yoda Chanyeol!" Chanyeol said as he sensed the tense atmosphere and tried to make it livelier.

Baekhyun takes a step forward, closer to me.

No! Back off! Don't come closer to me!" I warn him off.

"Look, I..." Baek tried to explain but I cut off his words.

"No! Just shut up! Your words are just trash! Apparently you said those words too much huh? Do you even know how it pains me seeing you with another girl. Do you know how it pains me when you said 'I love you' to me but in reality you're madly deeply in love with her. Do you know how it pains me when you said I'm your inspiration even though it had always been her? I've never felt anymore happy when you said those words to me. It makes me have a reason to live each day though I had to undergo painful therapies so that I'll recover from leukemia. When those reports came out, I felt disheartened and found no more reason to live. I feel like dying Baekhyun. Because, of you." I took the scissors on my table and held it near to my wrist. 

"Please I beg you, put the scissors down!" Baekhyun said in a panicky state.

"It's always been her" I replied coldly. With one move, blood starts to drip out of my wrist. I feel myself slowly... 

I opened my eyes to see a worried looking Chanyeol. Why am I still alive...?

"Idiot! Why did you do that!" Chanyeol scolded me.

I sat upright slowly. TI looked around the room. There's only Chanyeol.

"Thought you didn't want to see Baekhyun. He's worrying outside. Idiot..." he said again and held my hand tightly.

"...For not noticing I had feelings for you from the start." he continued.

"It kills me to see you're in pain everyday. If only I could take away the pain you're undergoing. It kills me to see you, the one I love, loving someone else."

"Plain words to cheer me up huh?" I replied thinking it was a joke.

"See, and you didn't even believe me. "

"Yeah and if I do, consider myself having to go through all the pain again" I replied monotonously.

"But I'm really do have. Ever since I saw you at our dorm practice way before we even debuted. You would come and always bring snacks for us. And from that day I would always hope for you to drop by our dorm. But you didn't came ever since we debut. I thought you hated us or something that's why you didn't came. But I found out you're in the hospital."

"But you never once came to visit."

"I did. Remember those different snacks someone left you? That was me actually. Whenever I came, you happen to always be asleep..." .

Tears started to stream down my face. Why now Park Chanyeol! 

"And from now on, I promise to come whenever I can and I'll court you"

"What?" 

"You heard that right, I'll court you. Now go to sleep, you'll have another therapy session tomorrow. Be strong!" 

I guess no doubt that he seems to be lying, the look in his eyes tells. The sincerity. It was full of passion of wanting to achieve that goal. It was him who made me believe again, Park Chanyeol.

PS i wrote this when Baek was with Tae