Jinxx is my what?: A Jinxx Fanfic

Chapter 19 ~ Lost It All

Tessa's POV

I woke up the next day in a white room. I look around and realize that I am in a hospital after I tried to kill myself. Why did I do such a thing? Oh right, it's because I had enough of everything. Why though? "It's because you're stupid!" My mind ringed with voices. "You deserve nothing you pitiful child." Will these ever stop? I'm tired! TIRED!

I started screaming in agony pulling my hair while crying. A nurse soon came in with others following behind her. They each grabbed me and pulled me down. But I only fought back more. They finally injected something into my neck and I eventually past out.

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I woke up again, but this time the room was different. It had a desk, camera systems, no windows what so ever. And the door. God, the door. It was made of metal and had like a small see through thing at the top. There was no handles to the door. It finally hit me. I was in a mental hospital. No! I'm dreaming right? Can this day get any worse?!

I walked to the desk and there laid a note that read:
Tessa,
If you are reading this, I wanted to let you know that I love you very much. I am not aloud to see you yet which is a shame. Me and the guys will be thinking about you a lot cause Tessa..... You're a blessing. If Cc hadn't find you, then I don't know where you'd be. Dead or in a coma. Please don't try to kill yourself ever again. I mean it! You scared me to death! Literally. I'm running out of space to write. So this is it. Goodbye. I'll see you next week. I promise.
Love, Dad.

As soon as I finished, I was in complete tears. This was my fault. I did this to myself. Oh god, why? I miss my Dad so much.... Why. Why me? I miss Andy especially. Always making me laugh. Making me happy. That's what meant the most to me.

I laid down on the bed. Surprisingly comfy. I couldn't stop thinking. What if I actually did it? How would my family react? How would my friends react? Thoughts like these made me wonder. I guess I deserve to be here. I deserve it. It's for the best.

I soon fell asleep due to crying and thinking so much. If only I hadn't tried to commit suicide.

Andy's POV

After I founded out what happened to Tessa, I was in complete shock. Why would such a beautiful girl like her try such a thing? I couldn't handle it. All the things we did together were gone now. Memories that won't happen for awhile. I soon ended up in a ball and sobbed. I loved her. She was my everything. Thing is, we're not even together and that's what pains me the most. My beautiful angel is somewhere else now after attempting suicide. I don't even know what hospital she's in!

I'm gonna be a wreck for days. Soon days will turn into weeks and weeks into months. This is gonna be a living hell.

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An hour later, Cc knocked on my door and came in. "Hey And- oh my god! Are you okay?" As he saw me red eyed and in a pit full of shame. "No... Can you close the door?" I asked looking straight at him. He nodded and closed the door behind him. "What's wrong Andy?" He asked. "T-Tessa." I said in between cries. "It'll be alright. She's at a place where she can get help." Cc said. He's right. "Can I-I tell you s-something Cc?" I asked him. He nodded and listened carefully.

After I told him my feelings against Tessa and how I felt, he just looked pure shocked. "Man, if only I knew how you felt. Hey, you know what? I bet she feels the same way. I mean she does have a look towards you when she only sees you. I don't man, but I think she does." Cc said. I sniffed one last time and gave him a weak smile. "Thanks Cc." I said while giving him a hug.

Eventually he left the room and let me rest. I just sat there watching her favorite show. Supernatural. I can see why she likes it. I might, maybe like it as well. God Damnit, I miss her so much. I wish she never tried to kill herself. I guess I've lost it all.

A/n
Hello guys! Sorry haven't been updating. Shits been happening. Sorry for a sad chapter. But!!! Maybe the next one might contain a happy ending. Maybe or maybe not. You'll have to wait to find out.
Now as always.... Peace Out, Thug Pugs!!!!!