5.S.O.S adopted ME!?

Tour coming to a end

Calum P.O.V:

So today is the day the tour is coming to a end. We are on the coach driving through England to catch the plane back to my home town! We are all happy that we finally get to go home, but that don't mean we all would miss the Fam. Me a Mikey broke down on our last performance, it was so emotional and on top of that I got a call half way through the tour that made me quite distant from the whole group. I didn't want to look at Luke, that's how bad it made me feel.

The call was to tell me to hand over Jacob. They had found his per parents, apparently, I do not believe that because I had my people personally look for his background I had them search over and over go through every birth file in California and had no luck! So how the government found his "parents" make me question their identity. How can they find a ghost? Don't be telling me they got the ghost busters on it because frankly they long gone retired!

As you may have guessed I no longer have Jacob. He was taken off me a week later from that call, that separated me from my, my child! They did not have the right. I tried to fright back but I could not. I had no papers ,I had no legal certificates so I could not keep him. I seriously hate the fact that the government can just give a baby back to its "parents" who had just, just abandoned the poor thing! I argued my point so many times, but they kept coming back saying the baby was taken from them, sorry for my language but that's bullshit!

Management got sick of me acting this way, so they told me to man up and focus on my career. They were right, so that's what I did I maned up and started to focus on tour. But that does not say I have forgotten, that does not say I don't remember him and it so does not mean that I want to forget Jacob and not want him back! I can't look at Luke, I know it is not his fault, but I can't. He has lily, he still had his child, his life line and his joy. That was taken from me the day that call was made. Luke looks so happy with lily he has tried to simmer it down a bit for me but I told him I'm fine, well I'm not, but I don't want to ruin there relationship because I can't have one with my child. Yes my child, ever since I took him in he is my child.

Durning the whole of the plane ride I was silent, as soon as we got off I put on a face mask preparing to be bombarded with fans. Once I exited the plane no one was there. I didn't question it, Luke probably did it for lily. Like I would have done for Jacob....As soon as that thought came into my head, my eyes started to tear up again. Ashton noticed and was going to say something but I brushed him off telling him to leave it. As soon as I said my good byes to everyone I got into my car, that was waiting for me, and went home. I didn't want to talk about, or to, anyone at the moment. I know what your thinking I'm being dramatic. But try having your own child taken off you, try having someone you love taken off you and just try and think how you let that person down. How you let someone who relied on you go.

Jacob is going to grow up without knowing me. He's going to grow up and love his "parents" and not me the one who found him. I'm just that random stranger who picked him up saved his life and had him taken off me. Now that sounds like anyone nightmare.

Jacob is no longer mine, he never was.....
Grow up well Jacob, don't forgot me, if you haven't already.

I had no more hope, he was gone, I don't know where he is. There is no luck!

I headed to bed early that night, ignoring my family who respect my silence. My head was in overdrive, killing me, I just want to shut down and forget everything. Even if it's just for 10hrs, at least I would forget and not feel anything during that time, which frankly is all I want 24/7.

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Heyyy guys thought I would do a Calum chapter! Sorry I didn't involve everyone( whole of 5sos) but I thought I should explain what Calum is feeling so you wouldn't just think he was just depressed for no reason.

Love you all, peace out! ✌️❤️