Love in the Skai

I love you anyway

Skai baby wake up I heard Trent voice he was panicking about something. I got up and felt a warm fluid coming out of my nose,I knew what that meant my nose was bleeding,my head was pounding. Your nose baby is the room too hot for you,he ask putting wet towel under my nose. Reality just hit me I was so busy letting Trent take me in every position possible I forgot that I was no longer cancer free,this man confessed his love to me and I failed to tell him that I'm dying and that it's a waste of time to love me. Felt dizzy and nausea I ran to the bathroom and threw up everything in my body,great it's only going to get worse once I start my treatments. Every part of my body hurt,my legs hurt and my vagina was sore. Trent stood behind me holding my waist,baby girl what's wrong he asked with a concern look on his face,I stared at him in the mirror trying to engrave his beauty into my mind since he's going to leave I tell him what's really wrong. Okay I have to shower and brush my teeth first he nodded and grabbed a new toothbrush from my drawer we brushed our teeth,before I could reach the shower he already open the glass door and turn on both hot and cold water. Thanks I said to him as I stepped in thanking he was going to leave only for him to get in to,he grabbed the soap and the loofa and started cleaning me,he cleaned my back and then grabbed my waist so he could wash my front I put my hands on his bare chest I began sobbing he was handling me with so much care and tenderness it hurts to know he's going to leave once he finds out I'm sick. He held me against his chest he kissed my wet,hair the hair that didn't belong to me because my once beautiful curly kinky hair are barely there my hair is thin you can see my scalp I have to do things to it to even be able to put it in a bun,if I want to wear it down I have to wear tracks,here he was kissing my false hair. I'm here Skai you can trust me I promise he said soothingly he finished cleaning me and himself he wrapped a towel around me and carried me back to the room. Dried my body and went to my night stand and brought back some cute cotton panties and a bra,he left to get his clothes I used that time to prepare myself for the rejection,he will leave no matter how much He loves me,that kind of burden isn't easy for anyone to deal with he came back in some black sweat pants a a navy blue shirt. He sat next to me quietly waiting for me to talk,I was scared,scared that this man that I love this amazing,caring loving and sexy man who spent all last night worshiping my body was going to walk out of my life. Okay Trent I hope all your bags are packed because I can guarantee you that you will leave after I tell you this I told him quietly. What is it he asked with a worried look. Okay you know why I live with my brother it's not because he was just worried about my safe it's because I was going to die if he didn't move to Florida my sophomore year I told him,he looked a bit confused. What do you mean Skai he asked worriedly. My freshmen year of college I would get sick out of nowhere I was always tired then I started getting these severe nosebleed,I thought it was from me working to much and missing out on sleep,sophomore year it got worse to the point where I couldn't get out of bed sometimes. Fainted at the bus stop,I woke up in the hospital I guess the people there where nice enough to call an ambulance for me. The doctors ran some blood tests and found out I had leukemia he looked at my cancer band necklace and said that's what this for. I had AML AcuteMyeloid Leukemia.
Acute myeloid leukemia (AML) is a type of blood cancer. AML usually develops from cells that would turn into white blood cells (other than lymphocytes). Sometimes, though, it can develop from other types of blood-forming cells I told him looking at his face to see his reaction he was listening intently. I called my brother because I was scared I didn't know what to do so he moved here and took two jobs to help me get treated,he even borrowed 50 thousand dollars from someone before he moved he so I can get through chemo and radiation. He had a hard look on his face I knew it he was going to leave. Anyway this year made it a year since I've been leukemia free as faith would have it my heart murmur got worse and I have to go through surgery next month,the doctor told me the surgery was dangerous since I was an ex cancer patient.I guess life is not done playing it's cruel jokes on me because the day before yesterday the doctor called me to tell me I was no longer cancer free I told him sobbing in my hands. What Trent asked with a croaked voice. Yup I'm back to being a cancer patient he told me he was going through my blood test and saw that the cancer came back and this time it's violent,so this time I might not beat it I said crying loudly. He pulled me into his lap hugging me close to his chest,no he said in hard voice you're going to beat it Skai you're a survivor,I refuse to let you not beat this he said holding me like I was a precious gift he didn't want to lose. We going to fight this and I'm not going no damn where I'm not coward Skai I don't run,when I told you I loved you I meant that he said staring into my eyes intensely. Why would you think I would leave Skai I came here for you,I planned on taking you with me I didn't come here just for the fun of it,you think I would confess my love then leave he said softly stoking my cheek.
Don't tell Julius please I begged him,he's been through enough with me he's finally enjoying life.
No Julius is my best friend and you are his sister I'm not hiding your illness from him you need all the support you can get he said kissing my cheek.
Can I show you all of me Trent I asked,as I began taking oh the tracks in my hair he was looking at me with so much love in his eyes he nodded his head telling me yes. I took all the hair out letting him see my super thin hair,my scalp was showing he kissed the top of my head then kissed all over my face softly once he reached my lips he kissed me so tenderly my heart melted. You are so beautiful my sweet skailear he whispered against my lips,this man deserves my love.