*TG: Sadness, and also mentions of self harm acts I guess*
i apologize for what you're about to read
i'm sorry guys but im not doing okay and everything is getting to me and im under so much pressure that i put onto myself as well as others and people just fucking piss me off bc of how bitchy and judgemental they are and im exhausted physically and mentally and i cant do anything right why do i even try and i feel sick because i ate like a fucking pig today even though im finally right around 115 and god damnit i cant even control myself and i cant find the motivation to get things done that should be getting done and ive barely been making it through the days and i want to just cry but i cant because i feel empty but also pathetic and worthless and guilty and wow im such a piece of shit that cant fucking do anything correctly or good enough and i deserve the pain i bring myself i deserve all of it because im a pathetic selfish asshole who cant fucking think of others and i cant get my shit together but i need to because when i dont it just makes everything worse and everything is crashing down on me and im so stressed and not doing good but im trying to fake it so i dont drag everyone else down but even that is beginning to fade again but who fucking knows because i'll probably do a really good job at it tomorrow l o l im a piece of shit bye guys but dont worry im fine okay i promise no need to worry about me you all should worry about yourselves first please
