I love them both

The decition

I wake up in panic,thinking of Kevin and Zach. My head hurts..I'm over thinking. I have to make a decision and I know it won't be easy. Either way there are risks. For Kevin, if I break up with him I'll tear his heart apart....only if he cares that much. Then there is Zach, I have a risk of him not liking me anymore. But who am I going to choose? I start scratching my arm without noticing it starts to bleed. I am nervous,I am stressed. My thoughts are turning into an emotional roller coaster that I can't control. A tear slowly slides down my face like a snowflake falling from the sky. What is wrong with me? Why is it so hard to choose. My mom peeks her head through my door as I wipe the tear quickly away from my face. "Sweetie are you okay? Your face is a little red." My mother questions with curiosity. "I'm fine." I say with a smile on my face without my mom seeing the stressed girl I am behind it. "It's just a little hot in the room because we are in Hawaii you know." I say backing myself up with her question. "Okay let me know, we are going to the beach soon." She says closing the door behind her. That was close I thought. I was on my phone scrolling through my camera roll when I found a picture....it's a picture of Zack. I smiled as I looked at it. He is pleasing to look at. I found myself just staring at the picture for quite some time. My heart is at a steady beat, I love Zach. Why did I give up on him. I still have a chance. The statue quote starts to make sense."Don't give up on someone you love" it said. I understand now. I can't  give up on Zack. I have a chance,I have hope. I look at the picture of Zach again,hugging it to my chest and now I feel willing to get my heart broken. I don't care I love Zack...but how am I going to tell Kevin we're over..