Stories in a Song

Good Enough - A

Ashton POV

I sat at the piano, playing softly as the rain fell on the window outside. It was the only way I could breathe without her here. She always loved to hear me play, so I could imagine she was just sitting there listening. As I played the familiar tune, I could hear her beautiful voice resonating around me like a dream. I felt so guilty.

Why couldn't you just fix things, Irwin? Huh? She was your everything. Your heart, your soul.

I tried to shut my mind to the little voice that haunted me. Her heart was basically bleeding in my hands. Her blood was the notes that flowed into the air around me. I could hear her words echoing around me, about feeling good enough.

How can she feel good enough if you aren't there? Oh wait. Because you were the reason she was hurting. She couldn't handle it, seeing you with her. So she moved on.

no. she's still here. she's still mine. She will always be mine. My beautiful y/n.

In your dreams maybe. She's probably-

I shut down the voice in my head, singing the words to the song, about being under her spell. it wasn't her heart that was bleeding. It was mine. I should move on, but I can't let go. It's only been three days. She didn't say we were over. Maybe she just needs time. Yeah... time.

"Drink up sweet decadence. I--- can't say no to you. I've completely lost Myself to you, and I don't mind. I can't say no to you. Shouldn't let you Conquer me completely. Now I can't let go of this dream. Can't believe that I feel... Good enough."

My heart was aching, remembering the beautiful moments. That first electric kiss on a Paris roof top. That first dance in our first flat in LA. The night I told her I loved her on a boat in Venice. I floated there in those memories, praying that we would have more firsts. I glanced up at the little box that sat on the music stand of the piano. The silver ring of diamonds and (Y/BS) resting in the black velvet.

"And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall. Pour real life down on me. 'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough."

A soft sob escaped my lips. I love her. I need her.

"Am I good enough for you to love me too?"

"Yes. Yes you are."

I wheeled around to see (y/n) standing in the archway of the door, her eyes puffy and a little red. her coat was wet as if she ran here through the now torrent of rain. She shifted from side to side, slightly awkward.

You shouldn't let her back in. She left. Why?

"Why did you go?" I whispered. I stood and walked over to her, wiping away the hair and cradled her face. My heart ached, the warmth of her skin on my hands like an electric shot. She reached up and intertwined our fingers.

"I was afraid. Seeing you with her, it just-"

"I was telling her to stay away." I watched her face for a moment. She seemed to relax into my touch. "I was telling her to stay away from me because I didn't want to mess this up. What we had. What we have." She stared back at me. She was smiling, but she was starting to cry.

"I love you." She whispered. I stared at her. She loves me. She loves me! "I love you so much."

I pressed my lips into hers. She sounded startled, but melted against me. I pulled her close and held her tight. She clung to me the same way I clung to her. The voice that had haunted me for these past days slipped away. I pulled back and looked deep into her eyes.

"I love you too. Please stay. Please don't go." I pressed my forehead to hers. She reached up and wiped away a tear from my cheek. she kissed me softly.

"I can't say no to you."

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Song: Good Enough - Evanescence
PC: Ashton on piano - Pinterest

This scene was hard to write, but just kinda flowed out. Writing about Ash crying was hard. The scene with him at a baby grande playing and singing this song was so raw and emotional, I just had to write it. The picture doesn't really do justice to the scene though. *shrug*

Y/bs - your birthstone