Dear Dirty Diary

fml

Some people just don't know when to quit.

I am getting really tired of people telling me I'm not good enough. Or I don't matter.

I am not that stupid I can see straight there fucking lie. Why do they keep things aways from me. They know I know. They should just tell me things to my face.

It's not like I can't take it. I haven't cryed in 4 months. I am not big on feeling things for other people nor will I show emotions to people who lie to me. I won't even show emotions to people I have known for years.

I am tired of being treated like a baby. Seriously, I know I'll never as popular as my sister but at least I try. I know I will never be the one calling the shots, I know I will never amount to anything but I am not going to sit down and take it.

If I have learned anything is that of you want something down your going to have to do it yourself. I am not going feen off of other people's accomplishments.

I've never been one to be out going and do whatever I want. But I am treated like a baby because I have an older sister who everyone likes.

I barely have friends because everytime I make a friend she comes up and take them.

For example I met this girl Becka, and we talked for a while and yesterday she got on my phone and added her on snapchat. Like for real. She just took my friend. Now to clarify Becka doesn't talk to me anymore. She is too busy talking to my sister.

I am just done with the lies and betray I have faced and I am not even a teenager yet. 😭😭😭