The Story Of My Life ( A Jacksgap Story )

Chapter Five, What Jack Did

"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?!" I yell. Mel jumps off Jack, and Jack looks up at me. I can see Finn slowly getting closer to Jack. I hold my arm out to stop him from getting any closer. I can see his fist clenching. There was a river of lava flowing through me. Jack stands up, and looks at me.

"I'm so so so sorry!" He rushes out.

"What's going on?" I repeat my question. 

"She jumped on me! I didn't want to kiss her!" He desperately explains.

"Oh that explains why you were KISSING HER BACK?!" I yell.

He remains silent. I give up. How could he do this to me? I was furious. I storm out, I hear the faint calls of my name getting more distant. I keep walking and walking. I don't realise I'm crying until, I feel a tear fall. I quickly wipe it away and keep walking. My phone begins ringing, but I ignore it knowing that it would be Jack. I shut my self in the elevator of my building, and head up to my floor. The metal doors close and I feel so vunerable. I hold my arms close to my body, and slide down the wall. I sit in a ball, as the lift slowly rises. More and more tears are falling down my cheeks are the image replays and replays in my head. I cant get it out of my head. I try and block it out but nothing was working. 

How could he do this to me? I thought he loved me!

I arrive at my floor, and stand up . I try to compose myself, but i can only hold back so many tears. I knock on the door, banging and banging on the door. Lewis opens up the door, and sees the state I am in and just opens his arms. I give up and let the tears escape, and just curl up in his arms. He strokes my hair, and I just relax. My tears begin to calm, as he closed the door behind me. I walk to the kitchen, and grab a beer from the fridge. 

"Want one?" I ask emotionlessly. I felt like I had cried out everything I felt. I just wanted to drink.

"Send it" He said as he sat on a kitchen bar stool. I open a beer and hand it to him. I take a big gulp, it makes me feel a little better, but I still feel like someone has torn out my heart. We stay in silence, for about 20 minutes. The image was still replaying in my mind, I couldn't block it out. I finish the last sip, and set the bottle down on the counter. Lewis is looking at me, he tries to send me a reassuring smile, but I still remain emotionless. 

"Wanna talk?" he asks. I open my mouth to talk, but nothing comes out. A tear falls and I quickly wipe it away. I go and sit next to Lewis and we stay in silence, for what seems like forever. I look into the distance, the look on his face, his smile and him kissing Mel was just haunting my memory. I feel arms wrap around me, then I am snapped back into reality. Lewis had pulled me into a hug, and I just rest my head on his shoulder. I take a deep breath, I'm ready to tell him what happened. 

"Jack kissed Mel"  I whisper. There was silence. I sit up and look at his face. He look so angry. More angry than he should be. 

"That two timing piece of shit!" He yelled.

"Calm down, please" I ask him. He looks at me and smiles. I reach up and stroke the necklace, Jack gave me last night. Then I realised that Jack told me he told me he loved me LAST NIGHT.

Have I been an idiot?

I need another drink, I stand and walk to the kitchen. This time I pull out a coke, and stand there staring into space. 

*Knock Knock*

I can hear Jack calling through the door. I see Lewiss' face darken. I let him go and answer the door, and I just stand there as Jack rushes through the door. I let a few tears fall, as I see his face. He goes in for the hug, but I just push him away. He looks shocked, but takes a few steps back. 

"I am so so sorry" He explains, I stay in silence.

"It wasn't intentional" Silence.

"She forced me into the kiss, I didn't know what  I was doing. I was lost, and in the confusion. I must of kissed back a little..." Nows my time to speak out.

"OH OKAY SO THAT MAKES IT ALL BETTER. I AM SO SORRY I INTERUPTED YOUR MAKE OUT SESH WITH YOUR BROTHERS GIRLFRIEND! Am I a fool for believeing that you loved me?" I start out shouting but my voice gets quieter nearer the end. 

"No I love you so so much!" He begs me.

"So why did you kiss someone else?" He seemed stunned by the question. I let more and more tears fall. 

"I don't know, I didn't mean to" I let my emotions come rushing back. I had a cocktail of anger and sadness washing over me. It was too much to deal with. More and more tears fell as I curled into a ball. Jack rushed over to me, and embraced me into a hug. I both hated it and loved it. He lifted my chin, so it was level with his and brought my gaze into his. 

"I love you so much. Even if you don't see that at the moment. I have always loved you since I laid eyes on you. I thought you were the most beautiful girl in the world. You don't understand how happy I was when you said you would go out with me. How happy I was on every single one of our dates, how I treasured every second  I spent with you. I love you and I always will. I am so sorry" His eyes glazed over with tears. He leaned in and kissed me. I didn't reject or accept it. I just let him kiss my motionless lips. He pulled away. I looked him in the eyes, as I wiped away a tear. 

"Leave" I whisper

"What?" He seemed surprised. 

"You think kissing me will make everything better. It doesn't change anything. Please just leave"  I ask him. It was barely audiable. I bury my head in my knees, as silence floods the room.

"Please don't do this, I love you" I look up at his face. He looks so innocent, but I still see that image that haunts my memory. 

"Jack" It was all i was able to whisper. I heard him lean in and whisper in my ear I love you and then the door slammed shut and I let my tears flood out. I am taken up into Lewiss' arms. He stroked my hair, and I relax. My eyes got heavier and heavier and I let sleep take me. 

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Authors Notes:

DUN DUN DUN! So what you you do. Would you forgive Jack or break up with him. I am curious so leave what you would do down in the comments. :) Thanks so much for the reads. I hope you are enjoying the story. Sorry the chapter was late. :( . Have a great week/end :)

~Georgia xxx