The Story Of My Life ( A Jacksgap Story )

Chapter Fifteen, The Day before the wedding.

Lewis's condition had gotten better, but there have been incedents of the voices causing him to do actions he regrets. I spent about 2-4 days a week with him, just hanging out with him. It has bettered his condition. I was so happy. One morning, I arrived at Lewis's apartment. The apartment was pitch black, I began to worry and hurried into the living room. I fumbled for the light and flooded the apartment with light. Lewis was in a ball in the corner, rocking back and forth with hands covering his ears. I run over to him and pull him into a hug. I try and relax him and repeating "shhh".

"They won't stop. Their yelling! Make them stop!" He yells. I place my hands on his and look him in the eyes. 

"Lewis, calm down! Remember what we've talked about. Breath in...Breath out. There are no voices." I stroke his hair. 

"You don't know!"

"Lewis..."

"Get away from me!" He yells at me. 

"Lewis!"

"Get away!" He yells. He wriggles out of my arms and pushes me away. I stand up and go to find his medication. He hasn't been taking it. I begin to panic, I rummage around to find water and takes a few of his pills. I walk back over to him.

"Lewis, drink this" I try and convince him. He just looks at me and shakes his head. I beg and plead with him, but he just refuses. I sit down beside him and take a hold of his hand. He doesnt pull it back and just sits there. I stroke his hand and he relaxes. I give him a minute and look at him again. He had calmed down and reaches for his pills. I hand him the water and smile. I rest my head on his shoulder and he wraps his arm around my back. I sit there and listen to his rapid heartbeat slow down. 

"You made me panic then" 

"I'm so sorry" I hear him cry. I sit up and look at him. I use my thumb to wipe away the tears and look into his eyes.

"You have nothing to apologize for" I smile. He smiles back and we continue to hang out. This has been a tool to help Lewis relax and learn to deal with his condition. Before I was just about to leave, I open the front door and turn around to find Lewis behind me. 

"Don't do it" He whispers.

"What?" I ask

"Don't marry him" He repeats. A little louder. I let out a sigh, I've had this argument over and over with him. I stand in front of him and place my hands on his shoulders. I look him in the eyes. 

"Lewis, I am not arguing about this again. Tomorrow I am marrying Jack Harries. I love him. I'm sorry I know its the last thing you want to hear. But you need to understand that" 

"I know. But..."

"Lewis. I'm sorry but I will see you after the wedding. I'm sorry you can't be there."

"I hope you have a great day." He smiles reluctantly. 

"Thank you" I hug him. I take a moment to say good bye and walk home. As I walk home, I think about the wedding. It makes a feel amazing yet butterflies suddenly fill my stomach. I run home, I was just desperate to see him. I fling open front door and look for him. He was just walking into the living room. I stand smiling at him and run up and jump on him. I wrap my legs around his waist and kiss him. He holds me steady by keeping his arms on my back. I press in harder with the kiss, and he frees one hand and runs it through my hair. I pull away and get put down on the floor. I smile at him. 

"What was that about?" He smiles. He teeth shine and his eyes sparkle. 

"It's the day before our wedding. I'm not going to see you tonight, and if thats the case there is someting I want to give you before you leave." I flash him a cheeky smile. I grab his hand and pull him up stairs into our bedroom. I shut the door and lean against it. I pull Jack in by his shirt and pull him in for another his. His fingers wrap themselves around the belt hooks on my jeans and I pull his head closer to mine. He pulls my body closer to his. With out breaking the kiss, we maneuver ourselves over to the bed. Next thing I know there was a banging at the door and it was dark outside. I rolled over to wake up Jack. He smiled at me and kissed me on the forehead. 

"That was fun" He smiled at me. I smile back. We both get up and pull on some clothes. I go to answer the door and it was Felix and Marzia. They had just arrived from Brighton. I was so happy to see them. I pulled them both in for a hug. After about 2-3 hours it was time for Jack and Felix to leave. I pull Jack in for a hug and just breath in his scent for a moment. I feel his lips press into my head. 

"I love you, and I can't wait to see you walk down that isle." He whispered in my ear, 

"I love you too" I whisper back. I kiss him one last time and he was gone. It felt so weird tomorrow I was going to be married to the guy of my dreams. How often does that happen? I was snapped back into reality by Marzia asking me if I wanted wine. I nodded my head subconciously. We talked nearly all night. But then we had to get down to the plan tomorrow.

"Okay, the hairdresser is coming at 10:30, the makeup is coming at 11:30 and we need to leave at 1."

"Got it!" 

"We should get to bed. It's going to be a long day tomorrow." I smile.