The Flashback [BxB] (COMPLETED)

9.What really happened

AN. I just wanted you to know that I  love you:*

Luke's pov

*back at the kiss they had at the end of chapter 6*

I ran. I knew that this moment had to come at some point...but not this soon!

I know I shouldn't have played with him like that...but I can't help it! I miss him.

We used to be a couple. As in the 'never gonna break up' and 'happily ever after' kind of couple.

But I did something wrong. Something so wrong that made me hide my feelings for him. And I don't know how to fix this.

At least I can protect Kam from all this shit I am into. 'For now' something in my head said. Yes...'for now'. Until he recovers all his memories.

Until he will hate me.

I just wanted to be friends. I couldn't stand the thought of him leaving me. And I couldn't tell him that we used to be together because that would ruin my 'protect Kam' plan.

I have to do something. I thought.
And I did.

I found myself walking to a house that I thought I'd never go to by my own choice. Carmen's house.

You see? She is the reason of all the bad things that happened to me in the last five years. She likes to think that me and her are together and she and some of her 'friends' used to bully Kam.

My purpose was to make her see that what she does is wrong and let me and Kam alone. And with that thought in my head I knocked on her door.

Not a minute later her mother opened the door and smiled at me. She also thinks that me and Carmen are a thing, but I guess that's Carmen's fault. I won't tell her the truth tho...it would only upset Carmen more. And that is not what I want right now.

"Hi! Can I come in?"I ask with a fake smile.

"Sure darling! Carmen is in her room. Use protection!" She laughed. I almost gaged.

I made my way to her room and the door opened before I could even knock.

"Hi sweetie." She tried to...I don't even know what she was trying to do. But all I can say is that it grossed me out. "Can I hug you? I haven't seen you since the-"

"Stop." I said with a shaky voice.

"Okay! Don't need to be so dramatic!" She smiled. "But can I hug you?" She asked, this time more impatient.

I decided to let her hug me. The last thing I want to do is upset her right now.

She managed to take my phone from the back pocket of my jeans without me noticing.

"Now can you please listen to me?" I asked.

"Sure." She smiled.

"I want you to let me and Kam alone. Don't come near us again. Don't you see that none of us are happy? I can't be with the one I really love, Kam lost his memory and I can't help him...and you... You want the only thing in the world that your dad can't buy...my love. I want all of us to be happy again. Please?" I begged.

She looked like she was thinking about something, then her eyes lit up. This is no good sign.

"Sure. I will let Kam choose if he wants to be with you and I won't bug you anymore." She said. I almost thanked her, but then she continued. "But, you have to make me a favour." Ugh!!

"What favour?" I ask skeptically.

"Have sex with me." Oh...shit.

"Then you'll let me and Kam live our life in peace?" I ask. I mean...I will do anything for Kam.

"That's the deal." She said smirking.

"Fine."

So I did. But I was a fool to think that after this horrible night everything will be over. I was a fool to think that she'd let me go that easily.

When I wasn't looking, she dialed Kam's number and placed the phone on the floor.

***

The next morning I woke up before she did so I dressed up and took my phone from the floor, thinking that I just dropped it when I was undressing.

Ugh. I can't believe I did that!

I will have nightmares for a few weeks because of that.

I jumped out the window and ran towards my house. I check my phone and see that I have seventeen missed calls from Kam and that I called him last night.

Wait...

WHAT?!?!?

Carmen! That bitch! I can't believe she did that! Actually... I do! Why did I even trust such a person? I am an idiot.

What will I say to Kam?

Fuck it.

I'll tell him that I lo...um...like him. Maybe even that we were together. But I can't tell him about what I did. I can't even think about it without my eyes tearing.

'How can I go and tell him about my feelings?' I asked myself. My phone hang. The name that showed on my screen made me smile.

Seth.