My Secret Family (Green Day)

You promised me a future

Girl on the side is Emma, Alex's sister

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I woke up in Lee's warm arms. Last night was amazing, Green Day can bloody perform it's was the second best day ever for me. I had a really weird feeling in my stomach this morning, I think it's nerves because I'm meeting my biological father today. I feel like I'm gonna-. I run quickly to the bathroom and empty whatever is in my stomach.

Soon I feel someone hold my hair back and rub my back. Lee. He sits behind me and I'm in the middle of his legs."Are you okay?" I lean back against him and nod quietly.

"I think it's just nerves" I mumble. He wraps his arms around my waist and rubs my stomach. We stay like this for a bit till the sick feeling in my stomach goes away, I go to the sink and brush my teeth."Lee do you just wanna get the train back?"I asked, I couldn't see my mum today, it would make me feel bad.

"Sure, I'll book us tickets" I think he knows I don't wanna see my mum. I open my backpack and get out my change of clothes. Again there just comfy clothes, I'm not going to dress up for anyone if it's -20 outside. Lee is on the bed straighting his black hair when I walk out "Hey" he mumbled looking up at me.

"Hey beautiful" I peaked his lips quickly before turning the TV on, in hunt for some cartoons. I'm in luck and an episode of the Power-puff Girls is just starting. I sit on the floor with my eyes not leaving the screen. I felt Lee pull my hat on my head then he lifted me up."Time to go, the train come's soon" he put his arm around my waist and we left to get the 2 hour train ride home.

We sit at the very back of the train in the corner, away from everyone else on the train. We talked, made out, slept and joked the whole ride home. I had text Louis asking her to pick me up at the train station instead of home. I got off the train with Lee and saw a middle aged woman holding a sign with my name on it.

"This is it" I said full of nerves.

"Don't worry, you'll be perfectly fine. I love you okay?" he kissed me like it was a goodbye kiss.

"I know, I love you too" he kissed me again and mumbled the same thing. I hugged him, took the bag pack containing our clothes and walked over to the woman.

"Hi I'm Alexandra" she smiled.

"Of course you are, well I'm Louis and I'm gonna take you to meet your father" she lead me off to her car. The whole journey she kept asking random questions like where was I, was that guy my boyfriend, just every day chit chat. I answered politely to each question.

She pulled up at a boring old building and asked me to turn my phone off cause it mess with the computer signal or something. She led me up to the top floor of the building and sat me in an empty conference room. I had a really bad feeling in my stomach, the feeling I get when something bad happens. I stood up to leave just as the door opened, reveling a man I met yesterday. Mr Billie Joe Armstrong."Is this a joke or something because it's not funny" I asked him.

"Alexandra, It's not a joke. Seriously I'm your father" he answerd really calmly.

"No, why didn't you say anything yesterday? I was right there"

"Because I didn't know it was you, I had a feeling but I wasn't sure" he sat at the table. He started to explain everything to me, like why I was adopted, why I live in the UK not the US, that I had 2 brothers back home and one of them was my twin. He told me loads more things and started asking me questions. He asked about Me and Lee, what my child hood was like, If I had any siblings, he asked about Emma. At 4 o'clock the interview was over and Billie left me with a huge decision, Do I want to stay here in the UK or move over to the US and live with my biological family?

I decided on walking home because the building was 20 minuets away, no point phone Emma to come pick me up. I turned my phone on after it being off for 4 hours and I had 2 text messages, both from Lee.

'Hey baby, I hope everything goes amazingly. Love you" that was sent straight after we left each other.

'I love you so much, I'm sorry. Goodbye' That was the next one, what does that mean? I hit the call button and it goes straight to voice-mail, I try again and again with no reply. I run quickly home and up to my room without saying 'Hi' to mum or Emma. I use my room phone to phone his house and again nobody answers.

"Ally, what's wrong?" Emma asked running to my side, I had tears streaming down my face and I showed Emma my text. She covered her mouth with her hand and pulled me to her chest. Suddenly my room phone goes off, I run over and answer.

"Hello, Lee" I cry into the phone.

"No, sweetie it's Rose. I'm so sorry, the hospital is just of the phone Lee overdosed this afternoon. He didn't make it" She cried, I dropped the phone and collapsed to the ground. Emma ran over and pulled me in her arms. I cried and cried, I just couldn't stop, now that Lee's dead I really don't have anything to live for. My family isn't really my family, my biological family live a million miles away and know nothing about me. Emma cry's with me, I think she has guessed what happened.

"Take me to the hospital, I want to see him" I croaked. Emma was going to protest but I gave her the look that said 'I'll go even if you don't take me'. She wiped her eyes and helped me up.

The car journey was completely silent, Emma didn't know what to say to me. I just kept thinking about the memories we shared. Lee was my first everything, he was my first friend, my first kiss, my first boyfriend, he was my first sexually. My life was planned out with Lee, we were meant to go old together, have kids together, tour the world together. Emma pulled me out of thought when she opened the car door."Come on Alex, we'll do it together if you want" she took my hand and lead me into the hospital. I didn't even hear Emma talk to the doctors but somehow I ended up in a room alone with Lee.

He lay there so peaceful, just like he looked this morning. Tears streamed down my face and I walked up to his lifeless body."Why Lee?" I cried putting my head on his chest."You promised we'd be together forever, you promised me a future" I let all the tears run onto his bear chest."How am I meant to live without you, you are my everything, we spend all day everyday together" I look at his face. He looked like he was just sleeping, I knew he wasn't, but I wish he was. I lay with my head on his chest for an hour crying and begging him to come back to me, even show me a sign that he truly loved me but nothing.

Eventually Emma came and told me I need to leave. This is the last time I'm ever going to see him, what am I going to do. I kiss his lips for the last time and leave. I walk out to Emma and cry on her, before we get out the hospital I get this weird feeling and collapse to the ground.

I hear Emma call my name over and over but I can't help it, I slip away to darkness.