My Secret Family (Green Day)

Meeting

Picture of Alex's new bedroom at the side :)) 

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I woke up in the arms of my big sister, I fell asleep during Kick-ass last night and never saw the ending. It didn't really bother me because I've seen the movie before. I got that sick feeling in my stomach again like every morning and ran to the bathroom. I hate being sick but if this is what I have to have a piece of Lee with me, I'll do it. "Aw babe" Emma pulled my hair away from my face and rubbed my back. I stayed at the toilet bowl for a couple more minuets, then the feeling went away. 

Emma left me to freshen up, I brushed my teeth then went for a long shower. The shower is my thinking place, there's only two things  I could think of and the was Lee and our baby. I would like the baby to look exactly like Lee, I don't really want it to have anything from me. But my main concern would be for him or her to be healthy, that's the only thing I care about. 

After my shower I dressed in normal clothes, I need to start getting myself in order I can't just sit about in comfy clothes all day crying, Lee told me I haven't to cry. I pull on a pair of my super skinny jeans and my red coca cola t-shirt, in a couple months I'll be to big for all these clothes. I walk out my bathroom with a towel wrapped around my head. Emma was on my bed still in her pj's, her bed head was really bad, she was laughing along to Jackass Number Two and I joined her. This made me forget a little bit, but never completely. 

 Billie arrive at 10;30 to take me away from my home, it's going to be weird not living in the cold weather, I really like the cold weather cause you get to put loads of different layers of clothes on. I walk past Emma's room and take the cardigan I always steal from her and put it on. "I'm gonna miss you being around here" my mum well Liz said hugging me. 

"Yeah I'm gonna miss being here" I hug my dad well again it's just Robert goodbye too."But I'll have to come visit" that made me think of Lee." I'll be right back" I ran all the way to the cemetery, it was 2 streets away so it wasn't very far. I made sure not to fall in the snow on the way. 

I got to plot 1805 and there was the fresh bunch of flowers I left yesterday sitting there. I sat down next to the grave "I'm going to America today Lee, to meet my biological family. I'm scared, I wish you were her to hold my hand and help me threw it. What do I do if they don't like me or judge me cause I'm pregnant?" I took a deep breath and looked at the picture on the grave." I wont forget about you Lee, I will come back and visit you. I'll never forget you" I kiss the grave and walk back home. 

"You went to see Lee, didn't you?" Billie asked once we were on our way to the airport.

"Yeah, I couldn't leave with out saying goodbye. He said goodbye to me so I just wanted to say it back, yanno" I leaned my head against the cool window of the taxi watching the place I called home for so many years drift past. 

"I would of love'd to properly meet him, I only really saw him that one time but the love in his eyes when he looked at you..." he cut himself of because the tears rolled down my face."I'm sorry Alex" he pulled me into a hug. 

"I just wish I could of helped him, he helped me" Billie held me in his arms while I cried, I guess this is our father daughter bonding moment. I always hated crying but now I just can't make the tears stop, I wish they would because Lee said in the letter I wasn't to cry. I rubbed my eyes and sat up "I'm okay" I croaked to a concerned Billie. 

"Ar-  Okay" he smiled and I sat back."Do you wanna change the subject?" 

"Yeah, If you don't mind" I rubbed my eyes with the sleeves of the cardigan and looked at Billie.