teachers toy ; jack gilinsky

eighteen

Emily;

"Slut,"

"Whore,"

"You got our favorite teacher fired, you fucking hoe. If you were that desperate to get fucked, go fuck your dad,"

"I hope you die."

"Nobody wants your ugly ass here anyways. Fucking bitch."

"Yeah, he's hot but that doesn't mean you have the right to have sex with him and get him fired,"

Just a sum of the words that are said to me everyday in school. Hurtful, I know. I just act like it doesn't bother me, but I would be lying if I said it didn't bother me a little bit. I just laugh it off. And then when I'm alone, I can cry in peace and nobody will see or hear me.

It's usually when I'm walking to class when people say those things to me. And Devon is one of them.

He once told me that he would always be here for me no matter what I did. He said he would always have my back, through thick and thin. We had been through so much together, so many memories, and then he just throws it all away. He doesn't understand how leaving me made me feel. I was so hurt..so lost. I didn't have a shoulder to cry on anymore. I didn't have anyone to talk shit about people to. I didn't have anyone to rant or vent to when I needed to. I didn't have anyone to call at 3 a.m. if something was bothering me. I didn't have anyone. Nobody wants the girl who got their favorite teacher fired by fucking him.

I don't regret my actions one bit, because I think I should be allowed to do what I want. I know that having sex with an adult is illegal, but kids break the rules everyday. My situation isn't that fucking bad, people need to get over it.

I was truly happy when this whole thing was going on. I knew I could count on him to make me feel better, to feel good and happy. But now I have to wait 5 fucking years to be able to see him again. But, if that's how long it'll take, then I'll wait for him; the love of my life.

He had told me when this first started happening that he wouldn't let anything get in the way of us being together. He knew deep down inside that we would get caught..but we kept going.

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"So what are we gonna do if we get caught?" I had asked as I sat down in a chair near his desk.

"If we do get caught, then I'll go to jail, and I don't want to go but if I do, just know I had so much fun doing this with you and that I won't let metal bars get in the way of my love for you. cliche I know to say that you're the best person that's in my life but i fucking mean it."

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I just hope his promise is kept.

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two updates in one day lol yay.

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