Lingering Past

A stream of light made it's way through the crack between my eyelids and momentarily blinded my eyes. The harsh lighting brought dark spots to my vision as I squinted my eyes shut, hoping to soothe the burning pain. After the pain subsided, I hesitantly opened my eyes once again, prepared for the burn but a cloud had covered the sun right at that moment as I opened my eyes to the world around me.

White walls, white curtains, white blankets. So crisp and pristine yet a siren went loose in my head. The stickiness of my palm and the shiver down my spine directed my instincts to go haywire in this unrecognizable room.

I felt my head whip from one side to the room to the other side yet my brain had trouble taking in everything around me. The dizziness as well as the slow registered pain finally came however my eyes came to a more important matter.

In this small cubic room, a petite girl in a bed sat with her back straight and with the eyes of a doe, she stared at me. Her beautiful yet tangled brown locks which reached her waist as she cocked her head to the side. A slight frown appeared as she pursed her pale pink lips in confusion. The girl stared back at me and I saw her reach tentatively towards her own face. When her hand reached her face, I felt a touch on my own cheek. I cringed against the bed frame hoping to shy away from whatever  force had touched me. This is crazy, she looked perfectly harmless and she seemed to be feeling how I felt. Misery does love company and as I got up and walked over, so did she. It seemed as if we had met halfway.

I reached out in confusion as to why she was still staying silent but instead of feeling the soft flesh on the arm i reached for, i felt a cool flat surface. That was when the word "mirror" came to my head. I collapsed to the floor in confusion but sat up quickly, using my hand and reaching for my face, seeing the girl; my reflection was doing the same. Who was this girl? It's not me is it? But it must be me if this is a mirror. What was going on? Who am I? Where am I? What am I? All these questions came pounding into my head. There's so much that i don't understand but there was noone that could answer my questions.

I felt as if the white walls started shifting, closer and closer to the sides of my head until i felt the pressure next to my temples. I began to see from the corner of my eye, black spots that were slowly fillling up my entire vision making me lose sense of everything. What was happening to me? I felt the blood pounding in my head as I started to panic, and suddenly a shriek escaped from the bottom of my throat. The last thing i heard was a loud banging and someone screaming but I was already too out to make sense of the meaning.

I opened my eyes, and felt a wave of déja vu hit me and following that came a set of memories. I remembered the confusion, the fear, and the pain.

"Melissa? Melissa!"

It took a while for me  to react as I didn't even realize there was someone in the room. I turned my head to where the sound was coming from and saw an aged doctor looking down at me from a chair. He held a a folder which had the name Melissa Angelina McAblin scrawled across it and seemed to be talking to me.

"My, it seems today has really been quite stressful for you. I don't believe you were listening what I was saying earlier, but don't worry.  My name is Dr.Reynold and you probably have realized your condition already. The fact is that you have lost all your memories. We believe that this is a permanent memory loss but when it comes to the mind, one will never know so never lose hopes in recalling your past. Your name is Melissa Angelina McAblin and you are an orphan living at the Happy Luck and Love Institution. You were attending school at Forestview Glen, a junior high. You are currently 15 years old. I hope that this helps you with an overview of who you are."

I had so many thoughts swimming around in my mind from learning so many things at once. Three deep breaths, calm down there's no need to panic. But there was one issue that seemed to be pressing at my mind.

"Why did I lose my memories? What happened?" I was desperate for answers.

"Well, someone in the institution had found you in a terrible condition and brought you here."

"A terrible condition? What do you mean?" I heard my own voice that had started to sound hysterical. I wanted answers, not lies that would make me assume things.

"Now be calm Miss. Ablin, we only want what's best for you. Don't worry, you are surrounded by a handful of professionals and we know what's best for you. You shouldn't try to force yourself to remember---"

All he did was continue talking in his monotonous voice. I didn't bother listening anymore. He was just talking about something to do with the mind and how it protects the body form the memories? Or the other way around? All of that didn't matter to me anymore. What's done is done. He did say that it was permanent.

Well then, if I can't regain any of my memories, I'd better start making some new ones real soon.

The trees swished pass me as i sat in the car heading back to my "home" the orphanage. It's funny how looking outside a car window can make you think of so many things. Houses and plazas started appearing in view. Everything here was my past. This place was everything I knew for 10 years. I heard from the doctor that I had been sent to the orphanage when I was five.

  I tried to look for hints of my existence or looking at things that sparked a memory but nothing came to mind. The area seemed pretty easy to memorize and I knew it wouldn't take me a long to be able to steer my way around this place.

A sudden stop caused my entire body to jolt forward.  Well here we are. I stepped out the car and looked around, taking in my new environment. Well not the best place ever but I'd better get used to it if it was going to be my home...

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Basically I came up with this idea like a year ago... but then I dropped it but now I changed it up a bit and might actually write more than one part. =/ It'd be awesome if you could give me some suggestions on my first chapter :) Thanks.