At First Sight (Lesbian)

If I Stay

*Eliza

"..EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU IS BULLSHIT.!" I am so angry at her. How could she.. Before I could finish my thought.. She kissed me..

I was trying my best to fight her soft lips on mines but I couldn't help it. I melted into her embrace and synced with her lips..

Tears started running down my face. I felt Candace tense up and wipe the few tears that has fallen.

I hate this woman so much right now that I love her.

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Candace*

I pulled away from Eliza and wiped the other tears away. Her outburst really scared me.. I looked at the clock 4 minutes.

I maybe just stared at her for 5 minutes but I had to say something.

"Eliza I can explain everything. That woman you say me with is my ex partner as of 2 months ago."

"2 months ago you were fucking me." She screamed back at me.

I looked at the clock noticing its been almost 10 minutes. The time flew and I haven't even said much.

"Eliza, I'm sorry okay? I didn't mean for you to find out like you did. Me and Sicilia barely talked. She was always out of the state, hell even the country. Every time she came back, we fucked talked about her work and then she'd leave again." I completed my thought..

I was staring over at Eliza trying to read her expressions. I got nothing. She began to open her mouth but no words came out.

Eliza began to look like a fish out of water..

"Eliza whatever it is you have to say, it can wait sweetheart. Ok?"

"Ok." This was the first thing I'd heard her say since her outburst.

I took a glance set the clock.. Fuck, I have a meeting in 30 minutes. I have yet to began preparation for it.

I look at Eliza and notice her eyes watering up. I walked to her only for her to take steps back away. I reached out to touch her face and she turned away...

I wish I was able to read minds.. I hurt her so so much.

*Eliza

I'm just standing here after our embrace. Listening to her talk. I feel so stupid. She has a partner, well had, that she lived with and loved for. What if I was the real reason they broke up?

How can I be so stupid? I'm 17 and she's way older than me. She's my principal for fucks sakes. How can I allow myself to become so attached so quickly?

I hate myself so much. Right now..

"Eliza I can explain everything. That woman you say me with is my ex partner as of 2 months ago."

She says ex partner like it makes all the better. Hearing that I got so infuriated. That pissed me off.. I began thinking about what I saw in the room.. They were fucking. So I opened my mouth.

"2 months ago you were fucking me." I screamed.

She began to talk and I zoned out. How could she lead me on like that? It hurts so much. I never thought this would happen to me. I didn't. I trusted her.

I began to think about what I did after I saw them kissing. I began to think about the fresh cuts. How I effortlessly slid the blade across my wrist.

The tears in my eyes began to sting. I'm trying do hard to hold them back.

I noticed Candace stopped talking.

I opened my mouth to say something but words wouldn't come out. Maybe because I wasn't listening to anything.

She must've of noticed or rather thought I couldn't collect my thoughts.

"Eliza whatever it is you have to say, it can wait sweetheart. Ok?"

"Ok." The tears were closer to falling. Then I looked up and noticed she started walking towards me. I backed away until I couldn't move anymore.

She reached out to touch my face but I rejected her.

I could see the hurt in her eyes. I didn't care though.

I looked at her and let the tears fall..

"Don't. You. Have. Work. To. Do?" between each word I wiped my tears. It sounds so harsh but I think this was a bad idea.

I grabbed my stuff and went out the door. My intentions weren't to go to class. But my happy place.

"See you Ms.Servant." I said to myself.