My collection of poetry and short stories

I Don't Want To Remember

Monstrous memories are clawing their way up from the deep dark hell they call home
Breaking through the walls I've fought so hard to keep up
Here comes the war
My mind is now a battlefield
Myself alone trying to fight back against the dark horrors of my past
I'm shaking, crying
The thoughts just won't fucking stop
Violent pictures running through my head
How in the hell am I supposed to live like this
All I want is to forget everything that happened
I don't care if I have to put a damn bullet in my head
I will make the pain end
No longer will I suffer from those tragedies
So here I go grabbing the blade
Cut
Slice
Deeper
Deeper
The pain of open flesh is the only way to calm the demons
Blood
Drip
Drip
Pour
Pour
Soon I will be nothing more
Than a body with scars
But I don't care
It stops the memories
That's all I want
All I need
Oh fuck
Too much
I'm getting dizzy
My sight is blurring
I can see inside my arm
Yet I don't stop
The thoughts still aren't gone
But soon I will be