Passionate Sin

Nightmares do come...

I stepped back a little, averted my eyes from meeting Aaron's. This is way beyond awkward. Last time, he was in love with me then Cindy Waltz and now, me again. He did say she is cheating. Probably, that's the reason why he is going back to me. To not loose me as his fuck buddy.

He mirrored my backing out, concern and anxiety plastered on his face, like he was holding more explanation to it but decided to held back. I didn't bother to ask anymore. Lies or not, I will not believe them one bit. I know Joe and I'm sure, in that short span of time being with him, I felt love. I am in love with him, nonetheless.

He stopped on his tracks, not mimicking me anymore as I nudged the edge of his bumper with the back of my knee. His hands no longer reaching for me and his head bowed down, looking the grass beneath our feet.

"I will take you home for now. This will not do. I will show you how I love you but not this way. I will prove you." His voice broke the silence that has been enveloping us for almost five minutes. He thought right. This is too much to handle. Confessing out of nowhere after saying Cindy is cheating on him. It was too much to comprehend. I do not know what to think of him. Should I think of him lowly? Hurt for him? Or this was all bullshit just to get into my pants.

I never thought of Aaron to be selfish ever, not until now.

He approached me and led me to the passenger's side, opened the door and I sat on the seat before he closed the door. There were no more words from any of us till we reached home. He walked me out quietly till I was inside and rode his car to get it in his garage.

I looked over my window before closing the curtains off. This saddened me. I'm hell confused right now and I don't like it one bit. Especially when things were starting to get better. I simply thought I could be happy, purely happy.

I simply wanted to drift off to sleep so I can relax my mind, not think of anything just Joe and my little sweet time with him. Joe can't possibly cheat on me. Not after what he said, asking me to be his girl? Right? I pondered at the thought, like a loop in my brain, I kept it on rewind and play in my mind when I was in showers, drying myself, dressing for sleep and even before going to sleep.

Man! I do need direct answers, like quickly. Because all these... Is too much. I can't afford to get hurt anymore. I've been afraid since my last boyfriend who took advantage of me.

Grabbing the phone in my bag and searched for Joe's number, hesitating to message him because I don't have anything in mind that is... Let's say concrete to question him about but guess what. I did anyway.

'Hey. Still up?' I sent. He messaged back quicker than I thought.

'Yep. What's the matter baby?'

A smile crept easily on my lips. Aww, I'm his baby? What the fudge! I'm like a teenage girl going all nuts over a guy. Damn! Recollect yourself girl!

'Just checking out on you. What's up?' I sent it, trying to be cool and all. I do not want him to be intimidated or something, so I have to be light. Perhaps being hard-to-get and seem like I'm not interested will turn him on and he would want to crave for me further.

It took him a while though before he replied.

'Nothing much really. Why are you still up baby?' He sounded guilty or something or is it just me? I don't know.

'Oh well then, I'm tired. I'll sleep now. Goodnight.' I avoided him now.

'Baby, I'm sorry, I wasn't able to fetch you a while ago... Got busy here in the office. And goodnight baby.' He did sound apologetic but I did not bother to give him a reply. I soon slipped off with consciousness and my subconscious took over me.