Damaged

What have you done?

I spent the next few weeks getting to know Niall and Mercy, half of the time it was just me and Niall and the other half it was all four of us. I seemed to never learn anything about Zayn, he was strangely quiet, i had never saw him as an open person but this was ridiculous. I learned that Niall was a caring, sweet, slightly shy boy, he'd always joke about how he was the boy version of me. I had a laugh with Niall, he was adorable, i knew he'd never hurt me if something did happen between us, i'd never dream of hurting him either because the little i knew about him, made me sure he didn't deserve it. As for me and Mercy, we were getting closer and closer, i'd go to her for advice about Niall, i wasn't sure if he just wanted to be friends or more but i was enjoying getting to know him. Zayn and i hadn't even had a conversation since Mercy got here, i think we both felt awkward about the almost kiss, i mean i was actually going to kiss him. Now i just couldn't, Mercy and i were forming a bond, it was nice. 

We were all planning on staying at Zayns brothers, there was still no sign of him either which confused me. Niall was on the phone, ordering the take away, me and Mercy were getting our onesies on to go to the dvd store and Zayn was preparing the house. I put on my dinasour onesie, it was green with splashes of purple and had a big pointy tail, when the hood came up i had spikes coming from the top of my head to my back, i turned to Mercy and let out a roar, she just laughed. She was wearing a Zebra onesie, black and white with black fur down her back. "I don't know what sound Zebra's make." She pouted at me which just made me laugh. "Neigh?" She shook her head and laughed, then we made our way to the shop. We got to the shop and browsed all the dvd's, i picked out a few horrors and typical for Mercy, she picked out love storys.. Eugh. While Mercy was buying the dvd's i couldn't help but grab a few snacks, or a few hundred. I bundled about 20 bags of crisps in my basket, lots and lots of packets of sweets, i got popcorn and chocolate, anything i could get my hands on, we all ate constantly, all of us were regularly stocking up the fridge at Zayns brothers house, we always hung out there, some days me and Zayn would leave Mercy and Niall in the house and go to the park but we'd never talk. I'd sit and sketch and Zayn would just zone out. 

"Hey Mercy?" I plucked up the courage to ask her the question that had been on my mind for weeks. "Yeah?" She looked up at me and smiled. "Where is Zayns brother?" I swallowed hard, not sure if i should be asking. "He's away." She smiled sweetly at me, but what did they mean when they said 'away'? "But where? I've known Zayn a while now and his brother has been 'away' the whole time, i don't understand it." She just shrugged her shoulders and skipped into the house. We sat and watched p.s i love you first, i was stuffing about 30 pieces of popcorn into my mouth trying to stop myself from making noises while crying, but then i looked over to Mercy who was leaning on Zayns shoulder crying and even Niall was rubbing his eyes. I swear i saw tears in Zayns eyes but after five minutes of me and Mercy winding him up he still denied it so we let it go. We then watched the woman in black, i found myself gripping Nialls hand through half the film and jumping and hiding behind Niall, poor Niall. We finished watching that and Zayn headed to bed, Mercy went through with him but she assured she was coming back out, me and her were crashing in the living room and Niall was joining Zayn in his brothers room. "I had a really good time tonight. Even though i may have to get my hand amputated." He smiled at me, the cheesiest smile ever but it was so cute. "I did too, i'm sorry." I tried my innocent smile but i don't think i had gotten away with it just yet, his eyes had trouble written all over them. Thankfully he didn't say anything else, was i getting bad at reading people? 

I stared at him as he locked his eyes with mine, his lovely smile plastered on his face the whole time. He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him, he tucked my hair out of my face and i knew it was coming, i had been waiting for this moment for weeks but now it was here i was terrified, we hadn't kissed since the night we met and i thought it might be weird. He grabbed the side of my face and pulled me in, our lips finally connected, he was rougher than last time, i wasn't complaining though, he was obviously more confident. He got softer as the kiss got longer, going from exploring my mouth with his tongue, biting my lip to little pecks on the lips, he literally swept me off my feet. "Erm, wow." I tried to speak but i couldn't catch my breath. "Really? Wow?" He looked like all his christmas' had come at once, i just nodded in response. I lay my head on his shoulder until i felt myself drifting off to sleep.

I don't know how long i had been asleep but suddenly i felt someone shaking me to wake me up, i groaned, not wanting to get up. I know i had fell asleep on Nialls shoulder, now i was lying down on the blow up bed in the living room, the blanket draped over me. I tried to open my eyes but it was hard, i was tired. "Elle. You need to wake up!" It then became clear exactly who it was. "Zayn? What time is it?" I finally opened my eyes, still totally confused. "It doesn't matter, you need to come with me. I need help, i didn't mean it, it was an accident please help me." I had never heard him so desperate, there was panic in his voice. "What? Help you with what? Zayn you're confusing me." I was waiting for a reply when he grabbed my hand and pulled me up. He dragged me to the bathroom and stopped just outside. "Before i show you let me tell you what happened.." I cut him off. "What are you talki.." Then he cut me off before i could finish my sentence "No, listen, don't speak. She told me.. She was.. She is erm, pregnant and at first i was a little dissapointed but then i was like this could be a good thing, you know? And then, she broke down, it wasn't mine and we're not technically official but we did agree to be faithful, and she's pregnant with some other bloke, i was angry and we were arguing, i tend to hit things when i'm angry, but never ever a girl, i went to hit the wall but she tried to stop my fist, i couldn't stop fast enough, she's, oh shit just look." 

He opened the bathroom door and there was Mercy, lying on the floor with blood on her face. Oh Zayn, what have you done?